time spacewarp, ngayon din!!

pre life crisis

2011-04-11T21:23:00.000-07:00

this movie is all way too relevant right now

Still feeling pretty useless..
I've had to put up with trying to recover from one failure after another.

I'm on my way to recovery, I guess.

B u t t h i s i s t a k i n g l o n g e r t h a n e x p e c t e d

self-doubt and procrastination.

I've done everything a good girl was supposed to do: obeyed commands, followed the curfew, got good grades, made friends with fellow good girls, avoided relationships, attended mass, took my vitamins..

Where's my reward now?

*wala lang. feel ko lang mag-rant sa ngayon. unhealthy na ang may mabigat na feeling sa loob eh.. di muna ako kikilos hangga't wala pa akong final decision as to how I would like my life to be. will probably remove this post once I get my act together.*

it's game time

2011-03-06T20:23:00.000-08:00

oh wow sunod-sunod na nakaka-low self-esteem events ang nangyari saken.

take note.. first 2 months of 2011 pa lang yan ha.

nawawalan na nga ako ng drive mabuhay eh..

pero di ako suicidal ha.

and I REJECT YOUR PITY.

ito lang siguro ang brutal na paraan ng cosmos sa pa-"guide" saken sa
tunay ko na destiny.

sa ngayon, aayusin ko muna buhay ko.
mag-eexercise sa umaga at iinom ng tubig.
matutulog nang sapat at kakain ng gulay.
eebak araw-araw at once a month na lang
magpapaka-wasted.

sa ngayon, yan lang mga bagay-bagay na may control pa ako eh.
ang cosmos na ang bahala sa iba.

pag-ibig

2011-02-25T07:33:00.000-08:00

Hello
I've waited here for you
Everlong

Come down
And waste away with me
Down with me

If everything could ever feel this real forever
If anything could ever be this good again

oh man.

2011-01-28T04:21:00.000-08:00

been feeling pretty paranoid lately..

wala kasi akong ibang ginagawa sa bahay kaya marami tuloy akong iniisip.

maging busy na sana ako uli uie...

geez!

wasteddd

2011-01-14T23:14:00.001-08:00

sarap ng feeling na ma-lasing na may umaakay sayo..

hahahaha..

tamang-tama lang naman pagka-tipsy kom yung stage of drunkenness na ma-chika ka pero hindi violent..

awesomeness..

yeh.

what a crazy random happenstance!

2011-01-14T23:07:00.000-08:00

so.. di ako nakapasa sa davao doc..

meh.

so.. nakapasa ako sa sutherland..

yeh.

time to make some money, y'all!

my day, in excruciating detail

2011-01-02T23:13:00.000-08:00

ok.. decided to revive my log so here i go reviving it..
di naman ako yung tipo ng tao na poetic..
di rin ako yung tipo ng tao na maraming reklamo sa buhay..
pero ako yung tipo ng tao na maraming excess mind energy na walang maisipang pagbuhusan nito..
methinks this is the reason behind my creating blogposts..

kanya-kanyang trip lang yan, mga tsong..

actually, i have a regularly updated blog on tumblr, pero para yun sa mga nakikita ko sa net na masarap i-display..

etong blogspot ko, para sa mga nakikita ko sa life na masarap i-kwento.. personal rant page ko rin to.. haha

my day in excruciating detail:
woke up at aroung 9am but it was still dark and cold and comfy so i decided to stay in bed..
stared and philosophized in bed until 11am..
nag-"good morning" lang ako sandali kay crooks at kinwento ko rin yung awesome dream ko tapos bumangon na ako..

i think mga 11:30 am na yun.. haha

drank choco milk and heated up the last two pizza slices left over from the new year celebration..

received an sms from davao doc that my grades were missing so i panicked and jumped in the showers at dumiretso sakay ng taxi papuntang davao doc para hanapin kung nasan na ang grades ko..

turns out my grades were there all along, mali lang ang date na nasulat kaya nalito sila.. whew.. false alarm.
sumakay ng jeep pauwi..

tulala mode lang ako dun sa kasabay ko sa jeep na may girl-stache..

pag-uwi ko, pinakain ko si jarjarbinks.. tapos net..

at ngayon, gutom na ako.. ano kaya lunch? (thinking)

resolutions (hope this works)

2011-01-02T01:07:00.000-08:00

resolved, that ira shall drink at least 5 glasses of water a day
resolved, that ira shall fix her posture
resolved, that ira saves at least 20 pesos per week
resolved, that ira is asleep before 2am
resolved, that ira will no longer ride the wrong jeepney
resolved, that ira will print those enzoDgrup shirts
resolved, that ira reads (and finishes) 1 book a month
resolved, that ira will drink coke only when offered.
resolved, that ira fixes her things every 2 weeks.
resolved, that ira gets a job.

1st post of 2011

2011-01-02T00:47:00.000-08:00

just thought i should post something to start something..

this is going to be a totally awesome year.

i feel.

so erm.. i'll be having my job interview this Wednesday and surprisingly, di ako kinakabahan..

hmm..

oh wow.. ano kaya mangyayari this year no?

sa 2010 kasi andameng nangyari saken na totally unexpected happenings... ano na naman kaya ngayon?

lest i forget the awesomeness that is 2010

2010-12-11T08:17:00.000-08:00

woah december na at malapit na uli birthday ko.. ano nga ba ang napala ko?

pag tinitingnan ko buhay ko in terms of mga bagay na pinag-gagagawa ko buong araw,

mukhang walang kwenta.. tv-kain-jebs-net.. etchetera..

pero when you take a step backward at tiningnan mo lahat ng nangyari saken this year..

oh wow..

napaka-YEAH!

1. did some volunteer peace-building work for the Mindanao Peacebuilding Institute

*sino bang kilala mong peace-builder ha? ha?!! oh diba awesome?!!!

2. after years of single-ness... i am now a doubleness..

*akalain mo? ako?!! si ira??? magkaka-boypren ng kasing awesome ni pol?? oh wow!! akalain mo..

3. tapos na ako sa aking IV therapy training at life support thingy oh yeh

*i can insert an intravenous lines and check out veins and save choking drowning people and stuff.. how cool is that?!!! yeh!

4. i taught anatomy and physiology to a bunch of tribes people and served as a translator.

*ilang tao ba ang kilala nyo na translator slash anatomy teacher sa mga old people na 21 yrs. old lang ha? ha?

5. became an assistant to forensic anthropologists for a week in South Cotabato.

*i helped put together human skeletons!! what's up with that?!! oh diba oh diba ibang klase?!!!

kaya pa...

2010-11-22T08:38:00.000-08:00

semi-surviving in the ward with the little experience i possess..

ang hirap magkunwari na as if alam ko ang ginagawa ko..

dapat magmukha na akong legit.

medyo kulang pa kasi sa confidence..

tsaka umandar na naman ang misconception ng common tao na "goody-goody" masyado ako..

ang tahimik ko kasi..

eh minsan naman talaga kung wala akong masabi, shempre di talaga ako magsasalita!

feel ko tulay napaka-boring ko na na tao..

kahit alam kong hindi naman..

gotta get over these self-esteem issues.

hmm.. thinking.

2010-11-17T23:18:00.000-08:00

so nagsimula na nga pala ang training ko sa hospital..

nurse na daw ako kunwari..

hmm..

registered professional na ako at lahat-lahat pero hanggang ngayon di ko pa rin talaga feel.

ano ba yan..

sinabi ko sa sarili ko dati, susundin ko lang gusto nila mama na maka-graduate ako college pagkatapos libre na akong mamili ano gusto ko gawin sa buhay ko..

nakalimutan kong may board exam pa nga pala.. so sinabi ko sa sarili ko ipapasa ko muna board exams at pagkatapos libre na akong gawin kahit ano sa buhay ko..

tapos biglang..

hmm..

sayang rin kasi tong opportunity sa sosyal na hospital..

hmm..

kaso nakaka-walang gana eh.. napaka-baba tingin ko sa sarili ko sa ward kasi wala akong alam.

what now?

oh god.

feeling mighty pissed

2010-11-09T18:57:00.000-08:00

22 years old na ako.

wala pa ngang trabaho pero come on, pwede konting respeto?

demmit. pwedeng bigyan nyoko ng konting freedom?

ano yan ha? ilang taon rin akong naging masunuring bata. hanggang ngayon masunurin pa rin kahit di na bata. demmit.

san ka nakarinig ng 22-year old na may curfew? ha?! ha?!

bat ba hanggang ngayon kelangan ko pa ring ipaliwanag kung san ako galing at ano pinaggagagawa ko?

di naman ako tulad ng ibang anak dyan na bigla lang nawawala for days on end at walang modo at walang respeto at di sumusunod at moocher..

tapos sasabihin mo na irresponsible ako?

tapos sasabihin mo na idiot ako?

tapos sasabihin mo na insignificant ako?

tapos sasabihin mo na childish ako?

hinahayaan kitang tratuhin ako ng ganyan kasi nakaka-net ako.

at shempre, may respeto ako sa mga taong mas matalino sa akin.

ok. di ako yung tipo ng tao na ranter..

pero medyo sobra na yata.

mag-iipon na talaga ako para maka-alis dito.

and i may never return.

ika nga ni jesuschristsuperstar: "think while you still have me, move while you still see me.. you'll be lost and you'll be sorry when i'm goooooone!!!"

para lang may post for 2010

2010-08-12T07:22:00.001-07:00

erm... this was taken during

the plurk meet-up.. (february, i think)

yep..

ultra nice.

check out the guy in yellow sitting across the bespectacled girl in grey.

this picture was taken 4 months(?) after that plurk meet-up..

wala lang.. :D

Nagpapasalamat ako.. hehe.. ^_^

2009-08-21T08:56:00.001-07:00

ang lungkot lungkot ko last week, grabe...

pero buti na lang talaga nandyan mga kaibigan ko..

meron akong karamay..hehe.. salamat! salamat!!

Last week, nung nasa height na ako ng depression, nag-karaoke kami..

dahil dun, medyo gumaan pakiramdam ko..

special thanks!

angie-salamat sa movie discussions at book reviews!

elreen-forever friends na talaga tayo as in grabeng grabe na to!

ethyl-sa chika chika all the way forever and a day!

raime-sa corny jokes galore at kwentuhan natin sa upuan!

maya-i rely on you a lot lumalakas ako pag nandyan ka!

marian-dahil napakacheerful mo at nandyan ka forever!

kevin-dahil di ka pumapatol sa kung anu-anong shit idol!

david-salamat sa jpop at happy shiny stuff at sadyang napakabait mo!

dominic-dyan ka lang ha, wag ka aalis! as in wag! as in! as in! internet cafe natin ha?

mario-dyan ka lang rin ha, wag ka aalis! as in wag! as in! as in! internet cafe natin ha?

kuya dio-kahit gano pa kalayo ang manila, you are always with me! friends forever!

"I'll get by with a little help from my friends.. I'm gonna try with a little help from my friends.."

With a Little Help From My Friends-The Beatles

2009-08-19T04:47:00.000-07:00

What would you think if I sang out of tune
Would you stand up and walk out on me?
Lend me your ears and I'll sing you a song
And I'll try not to sing out of key

Oh I get by with a little help from my friends
Mm I get high with a little help from my friends
Mm going to try with a little help from my friends

What do I do when my love is away?(Does it worry you to be alone?)
How do I feel by the end of the day?(Are you sad because you're on your own?)

No I get by with a little help from my friends
Mm I get high with a little help from my friends
Mm going to try with a little help from my friends

(Do you need anybody?)I need somebody to love
(Could it be anybody?)I want somebody to love

(Would you believe in a love at first sight?)Yes I'm certain that it happens all the time
(What do you see when you turn out the light?)I can't tell you, but I know it's mine

Oh I get by with a little help from my friends
Mm I get high with a little help from my friends
Oh I'm going to try with a little help from my friends

(Do you need anybody?)I just need somebody to love
(Could it be anybody?)I want somebody to love

Oh I get by with a little help from my friends
Mm going to try with a little help from my friends
Oh I get high with a little help from my friends
Yes I get by with a little help from my friends

With a little help from my friends

While My Guitar Gently Weeps-The Beatles, White Album

2009-08-10T11:11:00.000-07:00

I look at you all see the love there that's sleeping
While my guitar gently weeps
I look at the floor and I see it need sweeping
Still my guitar gently weeps

I don't know why nobody told you how to unfold you love
I don't know how someone controlled you they bought and sold you

I look at the world and I notice it's turning
While my guitar gently weeps
With every mistake we must surely be learning
Still my guitar gently weeps

I don't know how you were diverted you were perverted too
I don't know how you were inverted no one alerted you

I look at you all see the love there that's sleeping
While my guitar gently weeps
I look at you all
Still my guitar gently weeps

*nalulungkot lang ako kasi di na ako nakakapag-gitara, and i think my guitar is INDEED gently weeping because of that sad, sad, fact. T___T

okey..buang na ako

2009-08-10T10:45:00.000-07:00

ok. i don't feel like sleeping just yet.

i miss the glory days of blogging. i'd rave about some stupid thing and my online buddies would react, then i'd comment on their blogs..then we'd comment back..et cetera et cetera..

i think facebook ruined that.
bloghopping used to be such fun, now all i get are worthless pages with uninteresting stuff/ads..

teka.. ba't english to?!!!

hooh.

eh kasi naman kasi, english ang pinapakinggan ko.. the beatles, baby!!

hmp..ano banamantong nangyayari sa bahay namin ngayon, halos lahat sila nag-aaway..
ako naiipit..

ako yung ambassador of peace..
pucha..

anobah......

weh.

2009-08-10T10:40:00.000-07:00

i almost had a panic attack just a few seconds ago.
been feeling pretty paranoid lately with all this crap about exhibit forms and the board exams and stuff..

all this fuss about these PRC requirements is so messed up.
heck, i shouldn't even be worrying this much!it's the pressure!
it's ganging up on me.. geez.

can't help but constantly obssess about all the stuff i have to do.. demmit.

it's a good thing my friends are still with me, ready to listen to my ramblings, et cetera..
but the fact that some of them are way too many steps ahead of me in our requirements makes mefeel all queasy and panicky inside.

need to find something else to obssess about.. soon!

eh kasi nga eh.

2009-06-14T05:22:00.000-07:00

You Don't know Me- Ben Folds and Regina Spektor

I wanna ask you -

Do you ever sit and wonder,

It's so strange

That we could be together for

So long, and never know, never care

What goes on in the other one's head?

Things I've felt but I've never said

You said things that I never said

So I'll say something that I should have said long ago:

(You don't know me) You don't know me at all

(You don't know me) You don't know me at all (at all)

You could have just propped me up on the table like a mannequin

Or a cardboard stand-up and paint me (paint me)

Any face that you wanted me

To be seen.

We're Damned by the existential moment where

We saw the couple in the coma and

It was we were the cliché,

But we carried on anyway.

So, sure, I could just close my eyes.

Yeah, sure, trace and memorize,

But can you go back once you know

(You don't know me) You don't know me at all

(You don't know me) You don't know me at all (at all)

(You don't know me) You don't know me at all

(You don't know me) You don't know me

If I'm the person that you think I am (Ah ah ahh)

Clueless chump you seem to think I am (Ah ah ahhh)

So easily led astray, An errant dog who occasionally escapes and needs a shorter leash, then

Why the f**k would you want me back?!

Maybe it's because

(You don't know me at all) Ahhh ah Ahhh ah

(You don't know me, you don't know me.) Ahhh ah Ahhh ah

So, what I'm trying to say is What (What?)

I'm trying to tell you It's not gonna come out like

I wanna say it cause I know you'll only change it. (Say it.)

(You don't know me) You don't know me at all

(You don't know me) You don't know me at all (at all)

(You don't know me) You don't know me at all (You don't know me)

You don't know me at all (at all) What?

why lungs, why?

2009-06-08T10:26:00.001-07:00

ok.
ganito kasi yun.
-_____-

i hate myself right now.

i've been procrastinating a lot lately.

di naman ako ganung klase ng tao.
ako'y active.
may time pa nga na medyo active ako sa aktibista scene eh.

di ako ganito.

dahil siguro nasanay ako sa relaxed mode kaya ako nagkakaganito.
oo nga. may pressure rin naman na binibigay saken mga magulang ko.
pero di naman ako tinatablan.

hmp.

galit ako sa sarili ko ngayon pero tanggap ko naman ang sarili ko ngayon.
at dahil tanggap ko ang sarili ko (who happens to be such a pessimistic piece of shit) sa ngayon, mas
lalo tuloy tumitindi pagka-inis ko sa sarili ko.

so..

what now, dumb-ass?!!

ok. medyo may na-achieve naman ako kahit papa'no ngayong araw kasi napa-check ko na yung DR exhibit form ko.
pero ano eh.. parang.. grr..

may empty something pa rin.
pakiramdam ko kulang pa rin ako sa effort.

nung may pasok pa, kung anu-ano pinaggagagawa ko para lang sa "glory" ng grade.
pero ngayon, wala na kasing grades..
wala nang magsasabi sa akin kung ano dapat ko gawin, kung pa'no ko dapat gawin, et cetera.

shet.

bukas babalik ako sa school para ipapirma DR exhibit form ko. sana naman tama ang ginawa ko na format. sana naman.
sinunod ko naman ang instructions, so hopefully di ganun kagrabe ang problema ko bukas.

ano ba 'tong empty something na 'to?!!!
sheesh..
wala sa mga tried and tested diversionary tactics ko ang umuubra.
parang yung tipo ng sakit ng ulo na di naman ganun kasakit slash nakakasira ng daily routine kaya di mo tinatapatan
ng gamot pero alam mo naman na may mali talagang nangyayari sa loob ng ulo mo..
yung tipong ganun nga.. parang benign tumor..
nandyan siya, alam mo na di siya dapat nandun, pero ok lang rin naman kaya di mo inaaksyunan.

potah.

help.

-_-

2009-04-29T01:01:00.000-07:00

i have decided to minimize my internet time.

it's unhealthy.

i always feel drained after i go online.

it feels good to explore pages, etc... but then..

sabi nga nung isang quote na nabasa ko dati tungkol sa TV... "the television has an amazing ability to make you feel connected and lonely at the same time.."

parang internet nga..

connected ka sa maraming tao. pero sa real world, you're all alone in a room (except for a few cockroaches)

so now, i'll try to be a normal human being and try to get things done..

maglilinis ako, aasikasuhin aking PRC requirements, ano pa ba..

ah yes.. money making schemes..

napaka-inutil ko.

grr..

*kanina kasi sa Eat Bulaga, yung mga contestant nila sa Sa Pula, Sa Puti..mga working students..

na-guilty tuloy ako..

ang bait ko 'no? i felt guilty.. amazing.

so umm.. see you next week, maybe?

Stagnation Damnation

2009-04-24T11:41:00.000-07:00

Medyo na-busy ako last week sa completion pero ngayon.. hindi na..

wala na akong ginagawa!!

kelangan ko ng "excitement" kumbaga..
wala pa talaga akong pera ngayon, kaya di ako maka-alis ng bahay..
shet.

hmm..

2:55am na at gising na gising pa rin ako.
sige.. iku-kwento ko na lang lahat ng ginawa ko sa araw na ito. ok?

nagising ako mga 10:30am yata.. badtrip na naman ako kasi masakit ulo ko. tapos orange pa talaga yung kurtina namin sa kwarto so imagine niyo na lang kung gan'o ka pangit ng gising ko.

pagbaba ko, naubusan na ako ng ulam. sabi ni mama.. "magcereals ka na lang.." eh kaso, ayoko ng muesli at honeystars eh kaya nag-nesvita na lang ako..

tapos yung ginawa ko after nun, di ko na maalala.. ang sunod ko lang na maalala ay nung kumain na ako ng lunch.. so breakfast ko 11.. tapos naglunch ako 1pm..

ininit ko yung liempo sa ref.. tapos nilamon ko talaga lahat ng pagkain na yun..
nakatulala lang ako..
meron akong naramdamang kakaiba..
pagkatapos nun, lumobo ang cheeks ko..
dumiretso ako sa lababo..
at sumuka ng bonggang-bongga..

sumuka ako ng 2 cups of rice, isang sachet ng nesvita classic flavor, at 3 hersheys dark kisses.
as in dire-diretsong suka.. wala ngang sound effects eh..
parang gripo lang..

ok.

kadiri.

pagkatapos nun, nag-blank na naman utak ko.. wala na naman ako maalala after that.
umuwi sila mama mga 4pm yata..
ah oo.. naglaro nga lang pala ako ng cooking dash pagkatapos ko sumuka..

so umuwi na sila mama 4pm no.. pinagalitan niya ako kasi ba't di ako naghugas ng pinggan tsaka ba't di ko inayos yung mga damit.. (pasok sa tenga, labas sa kabila..hehe)

tapos umalis tita ko tsaka si mama nagpamassage..

tapos nag-dinner na kami..
medyo nagalinlangan akong kumain uli kasi medyo nahihilo pa rin ako.. pero.. GO!!
glass noodles yung ulam namin.. .masarap..pero tatlong subo lang ang nakayanan ko..

pagkatapos nun, umakyat ako sa kwarto para maka-iwas sa gulo..
nag-gitara gitara ng konti.. tapos nung naubusan na ako ng mga songs, nanood ako TV..

tapos.. eto..

nagiinternet na naman..

sabi ng erpat ko, yung iniipit daw ni angel locsin sa kilikili niya dun sa commercial ng Rexona ay Pringles..hehe..
yung sa "ligo lang", onion flavor daw kasi nag-iiba kulay..
tapos yung sa "with rexona" ano.. classic flavor..

Kaming tatlo.. ang pagbabalik!

2009-04-14T10:09:00.001-07:00

<--this kind of friendship lasts forevah.

Ngayong araw, tuwang-tuwa ako. Sa wakas, nagkita kaming muli ni Mario at Dominic.

Na-miss ko talaga ang dalawang mokong na 'to.. hehe..

Nagkita kami sa NCCC mall at kumain muna ng takoyaki. Nag-update rin nga pala kami tungkol sa aming mga buhay-buhay.

Wala talagang nagbago. Graduate na kami ni Mario pero parang second year high school pa rin.

Haay.. Nagpapasalamat talaga ako na magkaibigan pa rin kaming tatlo.. Grabe. Walong taon na rin kaming nagsasama ha..!
Mahal na Mahal ko talaga Ang dalawang yun at kahit ano man ang mangyari, mamahalin ko pa rin sila.

Sheesh. Foodtrip to the max talaga kaming tatlo. Kainis nga lang kasi yung mga kasabay ko puro payatot.. wahaaa!! Hehe..

Kakahiya kumain.

So, nag-takoyaki kami, diba? Pagkatapos nun, lakad-lakad muna sa mall para medyo matunawan.. nakasalubong namin si Sr. Elle, teacher namin dati as Aral. Pan..

Tapos nakita nila yung CI ko na hot.. hehe.. silang dalawa ay "nalibog".. hahaaaaa!!

Tapos tumuloy kami sa Banok's sa may People's Park.. KAIN NA NAMAN!!! WAHAA!!
Nag-extra rice pa talaga ako.. grabe! Goodluck na lang sa jebs ko mamaya.. haha..

Tapos siyempre, kelangan na namang i-digest yung barbeque so lumibot naman kami sa People's Park.. hehe.

<-ready to jebs na kami!

Chika-chika na naman kami.. hehe.. nakasalubong namin si Ronmar..

Todo photo ops din kami.. ginamit naming tripod yung mga trashcan.. hahay.. bliss.

Nung naubusan na kami ng lilibutan sa People's Park, dumiretso kami sa G-mik para magkaraoke up to sawa.. grabe. Napaos yata ako dun.

Lonely Hearts Club ang naging itsura namin.. wahaaa!!!

<--we are lonely and we have hearts.. <3

Puro heartbreak sawi songs ang tinira namin.. tuwang-tuwa naman ako..hehe..

Katagalan, na-exhaust na rin kami.. kaya yun, naglakad na naman kami.

Tapos.. hulaan niyo kung ano na naman ginawa namin..

Yeh!

Kumain uli!! Wahaa!!

Nag-Basti's kami at umorder ng pizza.. yung sizzling gambas hot spicy pizza.. hindi pala understatement yung title nung pizza..

HANG HANGHANG talagaaaH!! Hooh..

May hangganan rin naman ang mga stomach namin kaya't umuwi na kami.

Sinabayan nila ako na maglakad pauwi at hinatid nila ako sa bahay.

Tapos sinamahan ko rin sila habang nag-aantay ng taxi.. haha.

Yey.

<--sa dulo ng maselang bahagharing ito ay matatagpuan ang mga leprechaun na mahilig mag-casino. VIP sila.

I am happy. Period.

Have a happy period! ^^

Abangan ang Susunod na Kabanata

2009-04-05T23:29:00.001-07:00

Hello people. And hello worlds!! Greetings.

Medyo matagal-tagal na rin akong nawala dito sa blog world.

Hmm.. so far medyo marami na rin akong "new experiences" na hindi na blog.. kakatamad ikwento..

Oo nga pala. Kaka-graduate ko lang..

hahay..di ko feel.. parang wala lang..

Tulog ang erpat ko buong graduation..ako naman nag-sounds lang..

Hahay.. don't get me wrong.. Masaya ako na naka-graduate na ako..

Pero wala kasi akong naramdaman.. akala ko na pag-gising ko may parang "feeling" ako na

Mararamdaman..

Kaya lang..wala eh!! Haha..

Tapos nakuha ko na rin pala ang professional nursing pin ko.. hmm.. wala Lang rin.. 0_o

Ang naalala ko Lang sa araw na yun ay Ang pain... ANG SAKIT NG PAA KO!!!

Lecheng heels.. T_T

surveys make the world go round!!

2008-12-24T04:50:00.000-08:00

Info

[x] I am shorter than 5′4.
[x] I think I’m ugly sometimes.
[x] I tan easily.
[x] I wish my hair was a different color.
[ ] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[ ] I have a tattoo.
[ ] I am self-conscious about my appearance.
[ ] I have/I’ve had braces.
[x] I wear glasses/contacts.
[ ] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
[x] I’ve been told I’m attractive by a complete stranger. (hahaha!!!)
[ ] I have more than 2 piercing.
[ ] I have piercing in places besides my ears.
[ ] I have freckles.

Family/Home Life

[x] I’ve sworn at my parents.
[ ] I’ve run away from home.
[ ] I’ve been kicked out of the house.
[x] My biological parents are together.
[ ] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[x] I want to have kids someday.
[ ] I’ve lost a child.

School/Work

[x] I’m in school
[ ] I have a job
[x] I’ve fallen asleep at work/school.
[x] I almost always do/did my homework.
[ ] I’ve missed a week or more of school.
[ ] I failed more than 1 class last year.
[ ] I’ve stolen something from my job.
[ ] I’ve been fired.

Embarrassment

[x] I’ve slipped out a “lol” in a spoken conversation. -- Why should this be embarrassing? hehe
[x] Disney movies still make me cry.
[ ] I’ve peed from laughing.
[ ] I’ve snorted while laughing.
[x] I’ve laughed so hard I’ve cried.
[x] I’ve glued my hand to something.
[ ] I’ve had my pants rip in public.

Health

[x] I was born with a disease/impairment.
[ ] I’ve gotten stitches/staples.
[ ] I’ve broken a bone.
[ ] I’ve had my tonsils removed.
[x] I’ve sat in a doctor’s office/emergency room with a friend.
[ ] I’ve had my wisdom teeth removed.
[ ] I had a serious surgery.
[x] I’ve had chicken pox.
[ ] I’ve had measles

Traveling

[ ] I’ve driven over 200 miles in one day
[x] I’ve been on a plane.
[ ] I’ve been to Canada.
[ ] I’ve been to Mexico.
[ ] I’ve been to Niagara Falls.
[ ] I’ve been to Japan.
[ ] I’ve celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
[ ] I’ve been to Europe.
[ ] I’ve been to Africa.

Experiences

[x] I’ve gotten lost in my city.
[x] I’ve seen a shooting star.
[x] I’ve wished on a shooting star.
[ ] I’ve seen a meteor shower.
[x] I’ve gone out in public in my pajamas.
[x] I’ve pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
[x] I’ve kicked a guy where it hurts.
[ ] I’ve been to a casino.
[ ] I’ve been skydiving.
[ ] I’ve gone skinny dipping
[x] I’ve played spin the bottle.
[ ] I’ve drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
[ ] I’ve crashed a car.
[ ] I’ve been skiing.
[x] I’ve been in a play.
[ ] I’ve met someone in person from myspace.
[ ] I’ve caught a snowflake on my tongue.
[ ] I’ve seen the Northern lights.
[x] I’ve sat on a roof top at night.
[x] I’ve played chicken.
[x] I’ve played a prank on someone.
[x] I’ve ridden in a taxi.
[ ] I’ve seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
[x] I’ve eaten sushi.
[ ] I’ve been snowboarding.

Relationships

[x] I’m single.
[ ] I’m in a relationship.
[ ] I’m engaged.
[ ] I’m married.
[ ] I’ve gone on a blind date.
[ ] I’ve been the dumped more than the dumper.
[ ] I miss someone right now.
[ ] I have a fear of abandonment.
[ ] I’ve gotten divorced.
[ ] I’ve had feelings for someone who didn’t have them back.
[x] I’ve told someone I loved them when I didn’t.
[x] I’ve kept something from a past relationship.
[ ] I’ve had a crush on someone of the same sex.
[x] I’ve had a crush on a teacher
[ ] I’ve been kissed in the rain.
[ ] I’ve hugged a stranger.
[ ] I have kissed a stranger.

Honesty/Crime

[x] I’ve done something I promised someone else I wouldn’t.
[x] I’ve done something I promised myself I wouldn’t.
[x] I’ve snuck out of my house.
[x] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[x] I am keeping a secret from the world.
[x] I’ve cheated while playing a game.
[x] I’ve cheated on a test.
[ ] I’ve run a red light.
[ ] I’ve been suspended from school.
[x] I’ve witnessed a crime.
[ ] I’ve been in a fist fight
[ ] I’ve been arrested.

Drugs/Alcohol

[x] I’ve consumed alcohol.
[ ] I regularly drink.
[ ] I’ve passed out from drinking. --- Haha!
[ ] I have passed out drunk at least once in the past 6 months.
[ ] I’ve smoked weed
[x] I’ve taken painkillers when I didn’t need them.
[ ] I’ve eaten shrooms.
[ ] I’ve popped E.
[ ] I’ve inhaled Nitrous.
[ ] I’ve done hard drugs.
[x] I have cough drops when I’m not sick.
[x] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem.
[ ] I have been diagnosed with clinical depression.
[ ] I have been diagnosed with one or more anxiety disorder.
[x] I shut others out when I’m depressed.
[ ] I take anti-depressants.
[ ] I’m anorexic or bulimic.
[x] I’ve slept an entire day when I didn’t need it.
[x] I’ve hurt myself on purpose.
[x] I’ve woken up crying.

Death and Suicide

[ ] I’m afraid of dying.
[x] I hate funerals.
[x] I’ve seen someone dying.
[ ] Someone close to me has attempted suicide.
[ ] Someone close to me has committed suicide.
[ ] I’ve planned my own suicide.
[ ] I’ve attempted suicide.
[x] I’ve written a eulogy for myself.

Materialism

[ ] I own over 5 rap CDs.
[x] I own an iPod or MP3 player.
[ ] I have an unhealthy obsession with anime/manga.
[ ] I own multiple designer purses, costing over $100 a piece.
[ ] I own something from Hot Topic.
[ ] I own something from Pac Sun.
[x] I collect comic books.
[ ] I own something from The Gap.
[ ] I own something I got on e-bay.
[ ] I own something from Abercrombie.

Random

[ ] I can sing well. -- Hahahah! Feeler ko! hahahaha!!! XD
[ ] I’ve stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
[x] I open up to others easily.
[x] I watch the news.
[x] I don’t kill bugs.
[x] I hate hearing songs that sacrifice meaning for the sake of being able to rhyme.
[x] I curse regularly.
[x] I sing in the shower.
[ ] I am a morning person.
[ ] I paid for my cell phone ring tone.
[x] I’m a snob about grammar.
[ ] I am a sports fanatic.
[x] I twirl my hair.
[ ] I have “x”s in my screen name.
[x] I love being neat.
[ ] I love Spam
[x] I’ve copied more than 30 CD’s in a day.
[ ] I bake well.
[ ] My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, red or blue.
[ ] I’ve worn pajamas to school.
[ ] I like Martha Stewart.
[ ] I know how to shoot a gun
[ ] I am in love with love
[ ] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[x] I laugh at my own jokes.
[x] I eat fast food weekly.
[ ] I believe in ghosts.
[ ] I am online 24/7, even as an away message.
[ ] I’ve not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class.
[ ] I can’t sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[ ] I am really ticklish.
[x] I love white chocolate.
[ ] I bite my nails.
[x] I play video games.
[ ] I’m good at remembering names.
[ ] I’m good at remembering dates.
[ ] I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.

buhok ka ba sa ilong? kasi 'pag sinubukan kong tanggalin ka..naiiyak ako..

2008-12-09T03:10:00.000-08:00

malapit na naman birthday ko..

wah..i don't want to grow up, dude.

pero as in..ang tanda ko na.
may kakilala na akong may anak na.
may kakilala na akong engaged.
may kakilala na akong may trabaho.
ako mismo ay kelangan nang maghanap na ng trabaho next year!

minsan napapaisip ako tuwing sumasakay ako ng tricycle na walang headlights/taillights sa gabi..

"kung babangga 'tong tricycle at mamamatay ako..ok na siguro..hehe"

ganyan kalakas ang pagnanais ko na manatiling teenager forevah..nung fifteenth birthday ko nagpost rin ako ng similar blogpost..

i hate adult life..adultery..haha!!

aging is a sin..it's called adultery..

i'm one of those people who'd rather die young than live until 60..
natural selection, brother!

summary ng lahat ng books tungkol dun sa vampire love thingy na over-sensationalized nah shet!

2008-12-08T17:06:00.000-08:00

kasi pare ganito daw yun. may isa daw babae na hot daw pare. pero maputla siya kasi hindi
siya inalagaan ng nanay niya pare. tapos pare emo daw siya kasi nga daw hindi siya mahal ng mundo at para siyang patay na bata na galit sa mundo. tapos pare, lumipat daw siya ng tirahan kasi daw masyado daw siyang emo para sa luma niyang tirahan. sabi niya sa nanay niya "tangina mo nay gusto ko lumipat kay tay". tangina pare hindi nagalit nanay niya. sabi lang ng nanay niya "tangina mo pare wag ka magmura".

so lumipat siya sa tatay niya di ba? pagkarating niya dun sabi niya, "tangina erpat bakit maulan dito?" sabi ng erpat niya "gago "bur" months na! malamig na tangena". so nagtaka yung babaeng simula ngayon ay tatawagin na lang nating "babaeng maputla at emo".

so pumasok siya sa school di ba? binigyan siya ng truck ng tatay niya pare. sabi ng tatay niya "tangina mo sa'yo na tong truck ko". sabi niya "salamat tay".

pagkarating niyang school tsong, may nakita siyang lalaking mukhang bangkay pero pogi. sakto. pogi pero mukhang bangkay. sabi ni babaeng maputla at emo "hot pare".

nung chem lab na ni babaeng maputla at emo, natagpuan niyang lab partner niya yung poging bangkay. so nung tinignan siya nung poging bangaky, ang asim ng mukha nito. mukhang nandiri ata kay babaeng maputla at emo.

sabi ni poging bangkay "tangina mo". sabi ni babaeng maputla at emo "tangina KA". sabi ni poging bangkay "tangina NIYA oh *tumuro sa teacher nila*". sabi ni babaeng maputla at emo "oo nga noh. TANGINA MO". sabi ni poging bangkay "tangina mo gago bampira ako". tapos naghubad siya ng damit at kumintab ang katawan niya kasi linagyan niya ng glitters ang abs niya kasi tigas siya at ganun na ang mga tigas ngayon na nagpupuntang emba.

so pare na in love si babaeng maputla at emo kay poging bangkay. si poging bangkay naman sige lang kasi sex din daw yun. so ayun. angshweet shweet nila.

"eow poh... ahihihihi"

"bebe mwahugz,..... ^^,"

so tapos nun nagpunta sila sa damuhan kasi.... alam mo na. tapos sabi ni poging bangkay "ikaw na buhay ko ngayon" sabi ni babaeng maputla at emo "tangina mo gago patay ka na". sabi ni poging bangkay "TANGINA KA".

tapos nagsex sila

so basically pare yun lang yung mga importanteng nangyari sa buong storya. intense noh? kaya pala nahhook lahat ng tao.

(repost mula kay crooks galing kay whenzki na ni repost din mula ian. sa maka-gets lang!! hahahahaha.)

ah yes

2008-11-29T09:07:00.000-08:00

ngayong araw ay ang last day ng 3rd week ko sa staff nursing sa San Lorenzo ward ng San Pedro Hospital.

7am to 3pm ang shift ko ngayon.

nagpapasalamat ako na wala masyadong toxic patients at super dami ng students.. haha...no stress..hehe

natutuwa rin ako at medyo close na kami ng mga kasabay namin na head nursing...si Vera, Cherry, at ang aking partner na si Ryan..

natapos ang shift.umuwi ako ng bahay at nagpahinga..naligo na rin at nag-antay ng oras.
binasa ko muna yung napaka-astig na librong pinahiram sa akin ni kevin..SKULDUGGERY PLEASANT..

nung 5:30pm na. nagtext na si dominic at mario na nasa mall na raw sila..
hehehehe..

nanglibre si dominic sa dimsum diner..spare ribs rice sa kanya, beef brisket kay mario at wanton noodles naman sa akin.

nagkwentuhan kami..lumibot sa mall..nanood ng BOLT..ang cute nung movie..nakita ko sina momo, jay-jay, rob, alain, dichi, sam, gian, at yung iba pa sa sinehan..

umikot uli kami sa mall hanggang 10:30 pmhinatid ako ni mario at dominic pauwi.
pagod ako pero masayang masaya..
hehe..

highschool blues

2008-11-24T05:03:00.000-08:00

miss ko na si dominic at mario.
ano na kaya ang nangyayari sa buhay nila ngayon?
huli kaming nagkasamang tatlo ay nung summer..

hindi kami masyado nakapag-catch up sa mga bagay-bagay..
hahay..

araw araw nung highschool, kasama ko sila. sa carenderia ni aling babe's kami kumakain..
yung beef ang order ko palagi, o di kaya chicken curry.. tapos coke..

wala lang..miss na miss ko na sila eh.
di na kami nagkita uli..
kumusta na kaya sila?
marami pa naman akong gustong sabihin sa kanila..
oo nga, pwede ko naman sana sila i-text..
pero iba pa rin kasi yung nandyan talaga sila..

napapaisip lang ako ng mga ganitong bagay kasi birthday ni dominic ngayon..

at after 4 months eh
ga-graduate na kami ni mario ng nursing.

kung bibilangin pala kung ilang taon na kaming magkaibigan ng dalawang yun eh halos 8 years na.

mula 1st year hanggang matapos ang highschool eh magkasama na kami.

may mga di pagkakaunawan sa gitna pero nalusutan pa rin namin..

haay..ang tanda ko na..

haay mario..musta na? may crush ka na bang bago? chinita na chubby na naman no!? mas cute pa rin akoah!

haay domz ..pumayat ka kaya uli? tapos na ba thesis mo? nanonood ka ba ng heroes?

haay ira..ba't ang busy busy mo? diba ang graduating relaxed na dapat? may boypren ka na no!?

hahaay

2008-10-31T11:16:00.000-07:00

i had fun during the MCS cosplay event.. too much fun that i think i've neglected to notice the other issues my friends are having..

i was too damn preoccupied with all the cosplay that was going on..

it saddens me. i guess we'll never get to bring back the good 'ol days.. oh well..c'est la vie.

ako na ngayo'y nagbabato

2008-10-18T08:31:00.000-07:00

ngayong araw ang last day of exams namin para sa finals. ngayong araw, nag-release rin kami ng broadsheet sa rock.

napansin ko na mas naka-focus ako sa pag-circulate ng dyaryo namin kesa sa exams.. iba na talaga ang priorities ko ngayon..
finals na..wala na akong pakialam..

The Rock: the official always hungry student publication of San Pedro College

oh wow i am so happy with how our pub is working things out.. i'm so proud of my co-workers!! yeh.

where does the good go?

2008-10-06T07:53:00.000-07:00

i'm a girl and don't you dare forget about it..

napadaan ako sa blog ng ibang tao..

ang gulo ko palang mag-blog..

ahahahaha...

kakahiya..lalake pa naman yun sensitive-sounding..tapos ako puro lokohan!!..ka-babae kong tao..baka pagkamalan akong tomboy/immature nito..

hmm..next few posts ko susubukan ko nang bumalik sa old school blogging kung saan ikukuwento ko ang mga pangyayaring naganap sa aking buhay..

hmm..kaya kaya? kaya!

on a lighter note

2008-10-05T23:34:00.000-07:00

my house..is a very very very fine house.. XD

buti naman at may new season na ng house. antagal ko ring inantay..sabik na sabik akong makapiling muli ang pinaka-lovable na doktor sa balat ng lupa!!
hahay..this must be love.. ^_^

yukan club na naman ang obsession namin ng kapatid ko ngayon..
non-stop viewing of recorded amusing movements of people keeps my sister and I alive..(or at least, sane)

hahay..busy-ness..i hate it..kelan kaya ako uli babalik sa vegetative state? i miss those days..T_T

Rachelle Mae Palang (1986-2008)

2008-09-24T19:03:00.000-07:00

Justice for Rachelle Mae Palang (1986-2008),

press freedom fighter and nurse for the people

The College Editors Guild of the Philippines, in behalf of its National Office, regional formations and chapters, all member publications and affiliate organizations nationwide and across the globe, expresses its most heartfelt condolences to the family, friends and colleagues of Rachelle Mae Palang (1986-2008).

Rachelle, or Mae-Mae to her closest friends and colleagues, was beloved to the Guild for her bubbly, tongue-in-cheek demeanor. She graced the Guild's gatherings with her easy banter and infectious smile, but was always brisk and business-like in her leadership. She has served as a valuable pillar and driving force in all of the conventions and gatherings she has attended and helped organize. To most Guilders, she was not only a colleague but a precious friend and confidante.

Shock for her untimely demise are evident in her Friendster and Multiply accounts, riddled with comments ranging from disbelief, grief, and even anger – all directed at her, as if to attest that even at the time of her death her friends and colleagues still go to her for conciliation.

Such was Mae-Mae's legacy and brand of leadership. She has always been easy to approach, a rational adviser and generous in her time and efforts.

Mae-Mae was also an outstanding student at the Velez College in Cebu City where she took up and finished her nursing degree. She became editor-in-chief of Vital Signs, the official campus publication. As campus journalist and student leader, she exemplified deep commitment to uphold press freedom, freedom of speech and students' democratic rights and welfare. She is respected by her fellow campus journalists nationwide for her wit, intelligence and sharp grasp of issues.

She was elected as Vice President for the Visayas during CEGP's 67^th National Student Press Convention and 33^rdBiennial Student Press Congress held in Albay, Bicol in 2005. She served her term for three consecutive years before she finally relinquished her post May of this year. The CEGP will without end be honored and grateful to have had someone as dedicated as Mae-Mae as one of its leading officers.

Mae-Mae worked hard to help re-open closed campus publications, establish student papers in universities who had none, and expose and fight campus press freedom violations as well as other forms of campus repression nationwide. She led, organized and participated in countless poetry readings, cultural nights, Writers' Trips, journalist skills workshops and protest actions and activities. Even after her stint as VP for the Visayas, she proved instrumental in gathering and collating cases of campus press freedom violations in the region for CEGP's quarterly digest.

Mae-Mae had to cut short her attendance in CEGPs' 68^th National Student Press Convention and 34^th Biennial Student Press Congress in Davao City for her scheduled nursing licensure exams in May 2008. She passed with flying colors and eventually became a registered nurse. Even before she left, she announced to the Guild her desire to pursue an alternative medical career, one that she would devote to the less-privileged. Mae-Mae also took and passed the National Medical Admission Test. She dreamt of becoming a doctor.

It therefore did not come as a surprise to the Guild to learn that upon achieving her nursing license Mae-Mae immediately volunteered for a three-month medical mission to the hinterlands of Negros. Mae-Mae barely finished her volunteer work in Negros when her dreams died with her.

Mae-Mae was killed by elements of the Armed Forces of the Philippines on September 18, 2008 in an alleged encounter with New People's Army rebels. Her face was barely recognizable; she was shot at point-blank range. Her feet and legs were black and bruised, signs of torture evident elsewhere in her beaten body.

Mae-Mae's untimely demise reminds the Guild all too painfully of the same fate that another CEGP alumna suffered under the hands of the AFP.

In April 2002, Benjaline 'Beng' Hernandez, former CEGP Vice-President for Mindanao and a human rights volunteer, was murdered by the military while conducting a fact-finding mission in Cotabato province. Investigations revealed that the AFP, after wounding Beng, raped and shot her at close range. The AFP later on insisted that Beng was an NPA rebel.

Beng, like Mae-Mae, was also only 22 years old when she died.

The CEGP condemns in strongest terms accusations and insinuations by the AFP that Mae-Mae was armed and a combatant. She was in Negros in her capacity as a registered nurse and circumstances surrounding her brutal killing should be independently investigated.

The CEGP, in this regard, welcomes initiatives by the Commission on Human Rights Regional Office to conduct an investigation on Mae-Mae's case.

The CEGP is also reviled at the AFP's gall to celebrate Mae-Mae's death by bestowing incentives and acclaim to her killers. It is an awful and terrible reminder of the state and characteristic of our security forces. They who are supposed to protect civilians are the main enemies of human rights defenders and social workers.

The CEGP also condemns in strongest terms the AFP's malicious attempts to malign the Guild's name through red-tagging and nasty insinuations. It is precisely this kind of twisted mentality that gives license to the military to repress, harass, silence and kill with impunity. Journalists are easily treated and branded as rebels simply because they are exposed to the ills of society.

The CEGP calls on all its member publications and fellow journalist organizations nationwide and abroad to collectively wield their pens and raise their voices to denounce Mae-Mae's killers.

The CEGP regards the likes of Beng and Mae-Mae as heroes of the present generation, young martyrs who have chosen to exchange their lives of comfort for their noble convictions.

Highest tribute to Rachelle Mae Palang!

Justice for Beng and Mae-Mae!

The On-going Military Operations in Cotabato

2008-09-18T09:48:00.001-07:00

Based on text messages sent by a Peace Volunteer :

August 21, 2008 – 3PM
Sabaniya Dimautang pregnant 35 of age and a resident of Brgy. Montay dead on the spot on Aug. 22 at around 2am. Her daughter, Nor-ada, 15 years of age, was also wounded. A certain indigenous resident of Brgy. Montay, 60 plus of age and a young boy named Buko Intil 19 years old was also wounded. They were hit by 105mm mortar.

August 23, 2008 - Around 12 Midnight
Homedy Abdulrahman, 11 year, old dead on arrival. Rabiy Abdulrahman, 7years old and Ula Ponak, 12 years old are all wounded. They were hit by 105mm. howitzer. They are all residents of Brgy. Butilen, Datu Piang, Maguindanao.

August 28, 2008 – Morning
6 jet fighters together with 4 OV-10 and 4 bomber planes keep on dropping prohibited bombs at swampy area of Nimao, Balanaken, Liong, Patulang, Nunangan. The war started in Municipality if Aleosann, Midsayap, Libungan, Pigcawayan, North Cotabato, municipalities of Vice Gov. Emmanuel Manny Piniol. When the MILF reposition its troops, the AFP has again conducted pursuit operation that’s why the tension continues in Maguindanao.

September 8, 2008
24 6x6, Samba tank and 1 Kennedy type of army vehicle seen yesterday, Sept. 7, morning facing Cotabato – General Santos Hi-way while the group are entering Brgy. Talitay for documentation purposes.
7 AM
Several troops of AFP entered in Shariff Aguak. They are planning to enter Brgy. Lapok and Brgy. Pamalian anytime.
10 AM
2 bomber planes dropped bombs targeting lower part of Brgy. Nimao. We are evacuating together with the civilians of the Barangay.
11 AM
There’s now deployment of army on the ground. They are now entering the Baranggay.
1 PM
Until now the wounded victims are still undelivered to the hospital and still not getting any medical treatment. Their situation and suffering is worst, they are nearly dying. We have 200 evacuees here, from adults to children, boys and girls, heading to Poblacion.

“Hanggang ngayon di pa rin nadadala sa hospital ang mga wounded. Grabe yung isang wounded, wala pa ring 1st aide treatment. Baka mamamatay na. Ang daming evacuees dito, mga bata, matatanda, babae, lalaki etc. Konti pa lang ang tumutulong dito kasi nagkahiwa- hiwalay kami sa pag bakwit. Almost 200 individuals mga bakwit. Kasi tumuloy sila sa poblacion. Mukhang ang concrete plan ng GRP eh patayin lahat ng mga muslim dito, binubomba lahat pati civilians”.

Sept. 8, 2008 – 1:48PM
Bailyn Raya 10 year old Grade 2 pupil 50% chance to survive. Guiamaludin Mandi 13 year old. They are all residents of Sitio Dagading, Brgy. Butilen. They are both hit by bomb at around 10AM.
3:45 PM
Bailyn Mandi 10 years old, Zukarudin Mandi, 7 years old, Adtayan Mandi, 5 years old, Faidza Mandi 2 years old and Aida Mandi, 23 years old, Pregnant - All dead due to serious injury caused by bomb explosion.
6:44PM
The father of dead children named Daya Manunggal and his son, Keng Mandi are missing. It was said that they were also dead and buried at Sitio Dagading, Brgy. Butilen. One child named Guiamaludin Mandi was said to be in Cotabato Regional Hospital due to the injury.
8:05PM
54IB AFP troops arrived from Pampanga. There are approximately a total of 1,200 soldiers deployed at the area.
9:20PM
Another wounded person named Abdullah Ibrahim, 24 years old, a resident of Brgy. Butilen is now in Datu Piang Center for medical treatment.

September 10, 2008
4:59 AM
At around 7PM last night more than 12 houses were burned by 54IB of AFP troops at Brgy. Sambulan, Datu Saudi, Maguindanao. Though there’s no fire fight happened. The civilians verified this unlawful burning of civilian’s houses.
8:08 AM
Civilian na ang ginagantihan nila ng mga suundalo dito. PAti mga bahay sinusunog nila. Sana nga may mga US media ditto at nang masaksihan ang mga human rights violation ditto.
8:21 AM
Medyo marami naman ang mga NGO’s na kumikilos dito, may relief goods din. Pero, di nabibigay ng fair sa mga civilians kasi kinukurakot pa ng LGU dito. Dapat pag may relief goods na ipapadala dito, di na dapat dumaan sa LGU, iderecho na lang sa mga evacuees.

updates uli

2008-09-07T02:41:00.000-07:00

sobrang dami ko nang kina-aabalahan na umabot na ako sa punto na hindi na ako bumibisita dito sa blog ko.

grabe.

ang huling blog ko na may "consciousness" ako eh nung 3rd year pa ako kung kelan nag-aalalala pa ako kung makakaabot pa ba ako ng 4th year.

eh ngayon midterms na. super dami nang nangyari.. kaya kinakailangan ko na talagang mag-update para 'di ako maka-limot..

sa ngayon medyo tinatamad pa rin ako..hehe

sumali ako ng CEGP national congress at nagkaroon ng mga bagong kaibigan galing sa iba't ibang student pubs..

ako na ngayon ang successor ni kuya PJ sa position na Office and Circulations Manager.. Si Glenn na ang Art Editor namin ngayon..

and finally, my dream came true..cosplay..yeh.ito yung isang araw na ako'y naging saksi sa husay ni manong ichigo(kuya alain) sa pagpuksa sa pwersa ng mga hollow.(tsad?!!)

super busy..pero 'di naman ako nagrereklamo..

i'm actually loving the hectic-ness of it all..

lovely...

para lang may post for august..

2008-08-31T04:28:00.000-07:00

Let my eulogy read: "Well, it's tragic how her brain burst like that, but let us recall how Ira was dumb enough to believe -- convinced even -- that there is some kind of life after death. At least now she knows better."
death death death...lalala..

ang ganda nung pagkamatay nila leonidas sa 300!!

wow!

kainggit..sana ganun rin ka-astig tingnan kamatayan ko..death by arrow shower..~wee!!
since ito na rin topic ko,
ililista ko ang aking top10

pinaka-OKna "mode of death" na nakita ko sa sine't telebisyon..

1. yung sa CSI-LV na tao na galit sa mga CSI, nanghingi siya ng 1M in exchange for Nick tapos dala na ni Grissom pera pero binomba niya sarili niya (kasama ang 1M dollars)
2. yung kay O-ren Ishii kung saan nag-away sila ni The Bride tapos na slice brain niya pero di naman nasira face niya.
3.yung kay Bill naman na di niya alam na pinatay na pala siya ni The Bride gamit yung pindot-pindot method.
4. si Prof. Xavier, inagnas nang buhay.. wow.
5. yung sa crouching tiger hidden dragon, so romantic.. date-suicide.. sabay silang tumalon sa bangin ng kanyang yayabs..
6.yung kay Boromir, kahit puro arrow na siya, pumapatay pa rin ng mga Uruk-Hai.. napaka-noble.
7.yung kay Spike, inagnas din siya ng buhay, napasok spirit(?) niya sa locket thingy, tapos binalik ni Fred sa Angel..
8. yung mama ni Amelie Poulain, nahulugan ng nagsu-suicide na babae.. take note: kakalabas pa lang nila sa simbahan nun!
9. yung mga lalake sa kung fu hustle na namatay dahil dun sa nakahiga na gitara. (trengtreng..igs!)
10. yung sa 300 naman, natuhog na siya.. hinila niya deeper yung bbq stick to get closer to the tuhoger to make patay..(wekwekwek..)
11. yung death ni septimus sa stardust..as in..nalunod siya kahit walang tubig dahil hinulog nung bruha ang voodoo doll version niya sa tubig..

We need YOUR help! click!!!

2008-06-27T00:54:00.000-07:00

please help greenpeace.. it only takes one click!

Release our activists

madali lang naman mag-click ng mga link eh..kaya piliin nyo nang pindutin ang mga link na makabuluhan.. so PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE help us save our activists..

if you want to know more about greenpeace, visit their site and sign up..

oo nga, i love japan..but eating endangered species or selling them for profit is definitely NOT for me..

at kung taga-pinas ka, isulat mo talaga Philippines ha..para makatanggap ka ng updates ng events ng greenpeace dito..

STOP the COAL, SAVE the CLIMATE

sa wakas!

2008-06-22T03:04:00.000-07:00

binigay na ng auntie namin ang digicam niya sa amin ng kapatid ko kasi bumili siya ng bago..

syempre ginamit namin agad!! so happy..so so happy oh yeh!! ehehehehehe nyuu!!!!

sa sobrang tuwa ko hinila ko agad ang aking kawawang kapatid para mag-photoshoot.. ahehehe..

gagamitin ko rin ang blog post na ito as an opportunity to make yabang to our electric guitar oh yeh!!

i am a hero and this is my guitar..*actually, my father's the hero and this is his guitar..hehehe*

naalala ko lang at ni-repost

2008-06-12T02:04:00.000-07:00

ang maliligayang araw ng kabataan ko.

hahaay..4th year college na talaga ako. wala nang atrasan pa.

namimiss ko na talaga ang workshop.. alala ko pa.. bibili ako ng coke.. tapos yung baso, ginagamit kong lalagyan ng oil o di kaya tubig, depende sa gagawin namin nung araw na yun..

sa visual ko nalaman na matutunaw at mabubutas pala ang plastic na baso ng coke pag lalagyan mo ito ng gas..

sa visual arts room ako natutong mag-floorwax:
1. walisin ang sahig gamit ang walis tingting.
2. punasan ng gas ang sahig bago lagyan ng floorwax.
3. lagyan ng red dye wax.
4. lagyan ng clear wax.
5. patuyuin.
6. kuskusin ng mabuti hanggang ikaw mismo ay madulas habang kinukuskos ang sahig.
7. para enjoy, kuskusing mabuti ang sahig sa may pintuan.
8. pagtawanan ang unang tao na madudulas sa sahig pagkapasok na pagkapasok sa classroom.

sa visual arts room ko rin nalaman na hindi ka pala dapat magbuhat ng isang baldeng tubig pababa ng hagdan lalung-lalo na kung bagong floorwax pa lang ito..

sa visual ko nakilala ang mga taong hinding-hindi ko makakalimutan kahit magka-alzheimer's pa ako..

peksman.

habang pumipinta, may kasabay nang bonding.. kwentuhan kami tungkol sa mga problema o mga pangyayari sa buhay namin..

minsan, maglalaro yung iba..

minsan, kakanta kanta o di kaya'y sasayaw at kakanta habang pumipinta..

yung iba naman, pag tinatamad, uupo sa sulok at matutulog sa banig gamit ang unan ni mam glecy na gawa sa plastic na pinuno ng mga candy wrapper,,

minsan naman, tahimik lang kaming pumipinta..
pero ang katahimikang yun ay isang komportableng katahimikan..

sa mga panahon na tahimik lang kami, ang mga utak naman namin ang nagba-bonding.. at dahil dito, dahan dahan kaming natuto kung pa'no basahin ang iniisip ng isa't-isa..

ang visual arts room ay heaven para sa akin..

kahit ga'no pa kagrabe ang nangyari sa akin sa araw na yun, pupunta lang ako sa visual room, bubuksan ang radyo, uupo sa banig, papanoorin ang mga taong dumadaan, at titingnan ang mga ipininta ng aking mga kaibigan..

ang visual arts room ay heaven para sa akin..

hahaay..

updates

2008-05-30T02:23:00.000-07:00

may bagong notebook ako..bleach..hehe..tag-12.50 sa national bukstore..dun ko sinulat ang aking
random thoughts for the week..

random thought nung may22:(bago pumunta sa cegp)

"maglakad maglakad..sa lansangan maglakad maglakad..."---joey ayala

kanina naglakad ako galing sa clinic ni kuya totong hanggang dito sa bahay.oh wow!
hee...
naisipan kong maglakad mula suazo st. hanggang addu campus para dun na ako sasakay ng obrero..
kaso, antagal dumating ng jeep..kaya yun, naisipan kong maglakad hanggang makakita ng jeep..
sa kakalakad ko,
umabot na ako hanggang gaisano mall..

tapos...

naalala ko na nalakad ko na dati mula gaisano mall hanggang victoria plaza..kaya nilakad ko na lang rin at nag-desisyon ako na sumakay na lang ng tricycle mula victoria plaza pauwi sa 'min..

kaya lang..

hehe.. pumasok ako ng victoria plaza at nagpatuyo ng pawis.. pagdating ko sa may parking area, na-realize ko na walking distance na lang pala ang parking area ng victoria plaza papunta sa veloso st..

kaya yun..

in the end, nilakad ko mula suazo st. sa may boulevard papuntang veloso st. na nasa obrero na..wahaa!! hehe..

^_^ di ko alam kung ga'no talaga kalayo yun pero nakatipid ako ng halos 28 pesos kasi nung tinanong ko tatay ko kung ilang sakay ba mula suazo st. papunta sa 'min,
sabi niya:

"hmm..tatlong sakay 'ata..apat kung sasakay ka ng tricycle papunta dito"

*my ghulay!! hehe..ilang calories kaya na-burn ko?
ok ring maglakad paminsan-minsan..lalo na ngayong grabe na ang global warming..marami ka pang makikita sa daan..
mabait rin yung araw ngayon, di niya ako masyadong pinainitan kaya oks na oks..

may23 (sa cegp kung saan napaisip ako ng char..):
WHAT IS VIOLENCE?
VIOLENCE is the string section of the ORCHESTRA.

WHAT IS ORCHESTRA?
ORCHESTRA is the lower part of the THEATER.

WHAT IS THEATER?
THEATER is a word that starts with T.

WHAT IS T?
T is a peg on which you put the ball when you play GOLF.

WHAT IS GOLF?
GOLF is a body of WATER.

WHAT IS WATER?
WATER is the one who serves you in the RESTAURANT.

WHAT IS RESTAURANT?
RESTAURANT is where you REST.

WHAT IS REST?
REST is what's LEFT.

WHAT IS LEFT?
LEFT is the other side of RIGHT.

WHAT IS RIGHT?
RIGHT is the opposite of WRONG.

WHAT IS WRONG?
VIOLENCE is WRONG.

oh mee oh my

2008-05-22T07:57:00.000-07:00

yabang ng surgeon na to ah..

oh mee..oh my.. malapet na akong maging 4th year student at hanggang ngayon etoh paren inaatupag kow?!!

ooy..konti na lang talaga 4th year na ako..sayang lang at di ko na ka-grupo sila maya ngayon..T_T

naitag akoa..

2008-05-06T03:12:00.000-07:00

RULES:

each blogger must post these rules first.
each blogger starts with six random facts/habits about themselves.
bloggers who are tagged need to write on their own blog about their six things and post these rules.
at the end of your blog, you need to choose six people to get

tagged and list their names.

don’t forget to leave them a comment telling them they’re tagged, and to read your blog.

1. WHEN I'M DEPRESSED, I EAT A BAR OF KITKAT. ewan ko ba..kitkat keeps me happy..any form of sweet food keeps me happy..kung wala nang kitkat, pumupunta ako sa syms para bumili ng chocolate cake..hehe..

2. I ENJOY GORE. pag nasa duty ako at kung saan pang lugar na may mga nangyayaring happenings involving blood and other innards, i am actually happy inside.. hehe.

3. LOVE NA LOVE KO SI AURA BOY.hehe..wala na akong ibang maisip na tungkol saken kundi ang aking di makontrol na pagkahumaling kay yamamoto yusuke na hamak na mas maganda sa akin kahit na lalake siya.

4. PUNONG-PUNO NG DRAWING NG EYES ANG NOTEBOOKS KO. mahilig ako magdrowing ng mata at minsan nakakapuno ako ng ilang pahina na puro mata lang lahat..AS IN!

5. TUWANG TUWA AKO KUNG MAY PINAPASUOT SA AKIN NA COSTUMES. nung bata pa kami kung anu-ano na pinapasuot saken at tila nadala ko yata ito hanggang ngayon..di ako photogenic o magaling magtahi ng costumes..pero i just LOVE it!! ^_^ cosplayer? pwede rin.

6. MADALI LANG AKO MAGSAWA. hehe..napaka-broad no? hehe.. sa palagay ko after a few years ibang-iba na naman ang trip ko kahit gano ako ka-obsessed sa mga trip ko ngayon..

i tag: maya, prince, rachel, ilsea, domz, gaddiel

highschool friends, assemble!

2008-04-12T23:28:00.000-07:00

bukas, magsisimula na ang summer class namin. sheesh..ang iksi ng bakasyon! hrmph.. kaya ngayon, susulitin ko ang vacation sa pamamagitan ng pag-post ko ng aking "last blog for the summer part one"

ikenai taiyou!! ranranranranranan!!!!!! hehe..ikemen paradise?! NO!! hehehe.. barkada ko sila nung highschool..si mario, arbert, eugene, jasper,at dominic

since it's summertime, i have to post a summer blog..yey!

last week, my highschool friends and i went to the beach. grabeh!

si eugene at ako doing our own version of the bleach musical..dubbed as:

"the beach musical: boh ha ha" BANKAI!!

halos 100pesos yata nagastos ko sa kakahulog ng 5pesos sa karaoke machine nun..hehe

sayang wala saken yung photos namin ni eugene sa karaoke machine..grabe birit niya! ^_^

ito kaming tatlo ng mga bespren ko..si mario(orange curlyhead) at dominic(white shirt guy)

aah..kaka-miss talaga..'tong dalwang 'to ang kasabay ko buong highschool as in since 1st year pa talaga!! yeh! ^_^ i'd never exchange them for anyone else..kahit ga'no pa ka-pogi..hehe

akala niyo puro boys lang kasama ko? hehe..hindeh! kasama ko rin sila ruthmae, charmagne, sheryl, at febjane..

*hrmph..konti lang ang pictures na nasa akin kaya ito lang muna mga mailalagay ko sa ngayon..

next time, dadagdagan ko na lang..hehe

updates

2008-03-18T08:21:00.002-07:00

hay salamat naman at may oras na rin ako..

holy week. geez. i still have to finish up that friggin' paper for that friggin' research proposal..sheesh!

ok. i feel guilty for not updating this blog. so now i'm compensating for it by listing the things i have been up to lately..(i just LOVE lists, as some of you guys may have noticed..)

uhurm..

1. nothing much is going on with my life right now, just pretty preoccupied with all the schoolwork going on..that's the downside of going to school..you have to do schoolwork..bohah!

yey!

of death and breast masses

2008-03-12T01:54:00.000-07:00

it's been a while since my last post and boy, do i have a LOT of new experiences in the hospital to share!!

sa operating room at emergency room na naman kami ngayon at feel na feel ko na talaga ang pagiging hospital worker..

bohaha..

feeling surgeon ako nung isang araw nung nagtanggal ng bukol sa boobs plus biopsy si dr. encarnacion.. biro nyo ako ang pina-retract niya nung organ tsaka pina explore explore sa inner boob nung babaeng inoperahan niya?! yeh! usually kasi taga-pasa lang ng instruments ang trabaho namin pero dahil yata sa kakulitan ko nag-give in na si doc.. yeh!

someday, i'll be a surgeon..wee!

feeling ER personnel naman ako nung nagkaroon ng code blue sa emergency room.. yeh! pinaCPR ako, people!! CPR!! yeh!

kaso lang, namatay yung patient..kasalanan ko kaya? -_-

dalawang buwan lang ang nakalipas pero nakakita na ako ng tatlong taong namatay sa harapan ko.. with all the hospital drama included.. flat line sa cardiac monitor [with the *toot sound included], defibrillation na may kasama pang sparks sa dibdib nung taong basa pala ang chest.. at halos dalawang dosenang epinephrine na sinasaksak sa mga kawawang taong naghihingalo..

napa-blog ako ngayon kasi ngayon nangyari ang ikatlong kamatayan at ako ang isa sa mga nag-ayos ng bangkay at naghatid nito sa morgue..

amazing.

ANG MGA PILING-PILING LINK NI IRA PARA SA LINGGONG ITOAH

2008-01-25T23:00:00.000-08:00

vestigial organs, git them outta my system!!!
finger linking good:
i like black. black looks good on me..-->
subukan niyo itoah.. tiredness test.. tired na pala ako mashadow...:
optimus prime is god.. top ten cartoon names evah..
Harry Potter and the Chronicles of the Lord of the Golden Compass of the Jedi

enjoy my linkys for the week..trial version..^_^
don't forget to use the right mouse!! hehehehe..

linky happiness

2008-01-25T02:17:00.000-08:00

uhurm.. napag-isip-isip ko nang gayahin yung style ni http://swimminginchampaign.blogspot.com na puro links o interesanteng mga bagay-bagay lamang ang nilalagay niya sa blog niya..hehe..

'di naman ganun ka-o.k. ang mga pinagsasabi ko dito.. kaya sa palagay ko.. napapanahon na..

[cue trumpet-sounding orchestra thingy intro music here]

tenenenen!!!
finally, my own version of 'linky goodness' (wholesome and very much NNSFW,as in not not safe for work..hehe)

"ANG MGA PILING-PILING LINK NI IRA PARA SA LINGGONG ITOAH!!"

pero sa ngayon, wala muna.. maghahanap muna ako ng sites.. pero at least, may title na, 'di ba?

hapi nyunyir!!

2008-01-10T02:01:00.000-08:00

new year resolutions....

1.umiwas na sa pagiinternet sa labas..magastos yan
2.magtago ng pera dapat may 50pesos a week kang savings, ok?!
3.i'll lessen my zombie modes this year.. very bad for my health..
4.no more softdrinks
5.no more pork
6.less beef..kawawa ang mga baka..
7.bring yellowpaper..stop parasitism..

ito lang ang mga bagay na feel ko kaya kong gawin..haha

Ira is really love aura boy

2007-12-20T21:18:00.000-08:00

fangirl na ba ang tawag saken? di naman siguro..

ira really loves aura boy, my golly!!!

sa hana kimi siya na character, si kayashima na nakakakita ng mumu at aura ng mga tao..

dahil sa kanya, dumami na ang tshirt ko na striped..
dahil sa kanya, ako'y napapa-"~kyaa!"

usually hindi ganito reaction ko sa mga pogi..

pero...

aack!!!!!!! ^_^ he's an exception...
*nahahawa na yata ako sa sakit ni baia.. (owner of the "hunterkekshunter" blog)

i hope NOT!!! hehe

Ira is love aura boy

2007-12-20T21:11:00.000-08:00

Your Aura is Violet

Idealistic and thoughtful, you have the mind and ideas to change the world.
And you have the charisma of a great leader, even if you don't always use it!

The purpose of your life: saying truths that other people dare not say

Famous purples include: Mahatma Gandhi, Martin Luther King, Jr., Susan B. Anthony

Careers for you to try: Political Activist, Inventor, Life Coach

What Color Is Your Aura?

inday!

2007-12-20T20:56:00.000-08:00

Nag-rent ng isang van ang magbabarkada para mag out-of-town. Habang nasa biyahe biglang humirit si Ethan…

Ethan: Alam niyo ba, in the Animal Kingdom, males are more dominant than females?

Di papatalo si Rosing…

Rosing: Ok lang. Studies show that women outlive men.

May pantapat si Dodong…

Dodong: Eh diba nga, men have higher IQ than women?

Di na napigilan at nagsalita na rin si Inday…

Inday: And what is your proof Dodong? Such claims concerning gender differences are empirical and they should be evaluated by evidence. Is it because there are more male scientists or mathematicians than female ones? Do you think that this translates to men having greater cognitive aptitude for science? Or males are intrinsically better at mathematical and spatial reasoning? Or that men show greater variability than women, and as a result there are more men at the extreme upper end of the ability distribution from which scientists and mathematicians are drawn?

Inday: Tell me Dodong, what’s your evidence? Don’t you know that we are endowed with core knowledge systems that emerge prior to any formal instruction which serves as a basis for mathematical thinking and these systems equally develop in males and females? I tell you, there are no differences in intrinsic aptitude between men and women. You must consider social factors involved before stating your claim. There are social forces, including overt and covert discrimination and social influences that lead men and women to develop different skills and different priorities.

Natameme na si Dodong…

Dodong: (sinisi si Ethan) ‘Kaw kasi eh! ‘Kaw nag-pasimuno ‘lam mo namang wala tayong laban kay Inday.

Nagising si Manang sa kanyang pagkatulog…

Manang: Ang iingay niyo! ‘La pa akong tulog… palibhasa di kayo inumaga sa paghahanda ng pagkain eh!

Dodong, Ethan, Rosing at Inday: Sorry!

wee..

2007-12-15T19:37:00.000-08:00

birthday ko kahapon at nanglibre ako sa pizzahut..

di kasing enjoy last year pero pwede na rin..
kasama ko si baia, maya, angie, tetz, at dominic

midnight sale sa gaisano mall.. binigyan ako ng tshirt ni maya na blacknwhite stripes..

T_T i'm older now..
di na naman nakarating si mario kaya't medyo malungkot ako..

para sa mga bumati sa akin, salamat!! ^_^

mario. this is for you... wah!!!

a spoonful of Edward Norton makes the viruses go down

2007-11-09T08:33:00.000-08:00

the greatest monologue of all time. here's monty talking in front of a restroom mirror (from the movie 25th hour)..
ansarap i-read aloud nito, promise..lalo na pag sabay dun sa movie. yeah!
*i got this from the top movie monologues/speeches of all time.. yeah! i've seen norton's film and i'm glad he's on top of the list...yeah! i heard he'll play the hulk next year..yeah!

Yeah, fuck you, too.

Fuck me? Fuck you.

Fuck you and this whole city
and everyone in it.

No, no, no, no, no.

Fuck the panhandlers
grubbing for money,
smiling at me behind my back.

Fuck the squeegee men
dirtying up the clean
windshield of my car.
Get a fucking job.

Fuck the Sikhs
and the Pakistanis
bombing down the avenues
in decrepit cabs,
curry steaming out their pores,
stinking up my day.
Terrorists in fucking training.
Slow the fuck down!

...getting one
of those operations
that elongate your penis.

Fuck the Chelsea Boys
with their waxed chests
and pumped-up biceps,
going down on each other
in my parks and on my piers,
jiggling their dicks
on my Channel 35!

Fuck the Korean grocers
with their pyramids
of overpriced fruit
and their tulips and roses
wrapped in plastic.
Ten years in the country,
still no speakee English.

Fuck the Russians
in Brighton Beach.
Mobster thugs sitting in cafes,
sipping tea in little glasses,
sugar cubes
between their teeth,
wheelin' and dealin'
and schemin'.
Go back
where you fucking came from.

Fuck the black-hatted Hasidim
strolling up and down
47 th Street
in their dirty gabardine
with their dandruff,
selling South African
apartheid diamonds.

Come on.
Your wife deserves this.

Fuck the Wall Street brokers.
Self-styled masters
of the universe.
Michael Douglas-Gordon Gekko
wannabe motherfuckers
figuring out new ways
to rob hardworking people blind.
Send those Enron assholes
to jail for fucking life.

You think Bush and Cheney
didn't know about that shit?
Give me a fucking break.

Worldcom.

Fuck the Puerto Ricans.
Twenty to a car,
swelling up the welfare rolls.
Worst fucking parade
in the city.

And don't even get me started
on the Dominicans,
'cause they make
the Puerto Ricans look good.

Who's this fuckin' guy?!
Get the fuck outta here!

Fuck the Bensonhurst ltalians
with their pomaded hair,
their nylon warm-up suits,
their St. Anthony medallions,
swinging their Jason Giambi
Louisville Slugger baseball bats
trying to audition
for "The Sopranos."

Fuckin' crack
your fuckin' head open!

Bensonhurst! Bensonhurst!

Fuck the Upper East Side wives
with their Hermes scarves
and their 50$
Balducci artichoke.

Taxi!

Overfed faces
getting pulled and lifted
and stretched all taut
and shiny.

You're not fooling anybody,
sweetheart.

Taxi!

Fuck the Uptown brothers.
They never pass the ball,
they don't want to
play defense,
they take five steps
on every layup to the hoop,
and then they want to
turn around
and blame everything
on the white man.

We not giving it up!
We not giving it up!

Slavery ended 137 years ago.
Move the fuck on.

Fuck the corrupt cops with
their anus-violating plungers
and their 41 shots,
standing behind a blue wall
of silence.

You betray our trust!

Fuck the priests
who put their hands
down some
innocent child's pants.

Fuck the church that protects
them, delivering us into evil.

And while you're at it,
fuck J.C.
He got off easy --
a day on the cross,
a weekend in hell,
and all the hallelujahs of the
legioned angels for eternity.
Try seven years
in fucking Otisville, J.

Fuck Osama bin Laden,
Al Qaeda,
and backward-ass cave-dwelling
fundamentalist assholes
everywhere.
On the names of
innocent thousands murdered,
I pray you spend the rest
of eternity with your 72 whores
roasting in a jet-fuel fire
in hell.
You towel-headed camel jockeys
can kiss my royal lrish ass.

"l notice how many
of what I once thought

"were evidences of repression,
sexual or otherwise..."

Fuck Jacob Elinsky.
Whining malcontent.

Fuck Francis Xavier Slaughtery,
my best friend,
judging me while he stares
at my girlfriend's ass.

Fuck Naturelle Riviera.
I gave her my trust,
and she stabbed me in the back.

Sold me up the river.
Fucking bitch.

Fuck my father
with his endless grief,
standing behind that bar,
sipping on club soda,
selling whiskey to firemen
and cheering the Bronx Bombers.

Let's go, Yankees!

Fuck this whole city
and everyone in it,
from the row houses of Astoria
to the penthouses
on Park Avenue,
from the projects in the Bronx
to the lofts in Soho,
from the tenements
in Alphabet City
to the brownstones
in Park Slope
to the split-levels
in Staten lsland,
Iet an earthquake crumble it,
let the fires rage,
Iet it burn to fucking ash,
and then let the waters rise
and submerge this whole
rat-infested place.

No.

No. Fuck you,
Montgomery Brogan.
You had it all,
and you threw it away,
you dumb fuck!

aants!!

2007-11-04T01:34:00.000-07:00

ohohohohohohohoho..
la ako maisip iblag pero gusto ko magtype.. so itatayp ko kung ano man ang laman ng utak ko as of the moment.

may nangyayaring kakaiba sa ikinikilos ng mga langgam..

naniniwala akong hindi ito dahil sa madalas na pagbuhos ng ulan..
kahit anong lagay ng panahon, kakaiba pa rin ang mga ikinikilos nila..

malapit na talaga ang end of the world..
alam yata ng mga langgam ang mga sikreto ng mundo..

ang weird na talaga nila ngayon..

kayo? pansin niyo ba na parang kakaiba na ang kinikilos ng mga langgam ngayon?

di na nila ini-invade ang mga asukal namin.. trip na nila mga damit..

bakit damit? ano ang nasa damit? bagong laba pa talaga ang gusto nila.. hindi yung sa labada..
akala namin dahil sa sabon.. pero hindeeeh.. paiba-iba na kami ng sabon!!!

weird..

naka ilang palit na rin ako ng bedsheet pero nilalanggam pa rin ako..

kahit sa'n ako tumingin, may langgam!!

aaaaaccckkk!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
pati screen ng computer.. cellphone, you name it.. they're there!!

geez.

kanina nga, paggising ko, ginawa nilang bridge yung kamay ko..
badtrip talaga..

dahil kaya diabetic ako?

nooo...

kinagat ako ng langgam sa mata
kinagat din ako sa scalp

nagising ako na puno ng langgam ang unan ko

di naman ako kumain sa kama

matamis ba ang mata ko?
may lasa ba ang ulo ko?

medyo mabango nga ang buhok ko dahil sa shampoo pero parehas naman kami ng kapatid ko ng shampoo at magkadikit mga kama namin bakit siya, hindi nilalanggam?! di naman madumi kama ko. walang pagkain..

ano ba?!

dahil kaya involved ako sa massacre ng mga langgam dati?
isa ako sa mga nag-isip ng mga taktika sa biological warfare warfare ni papa dati nung nagmassacre kami ng mga langgam..(pinag-away namin yung mga pula at itim sa pamamagitan nga biological warfare:nanalo yung mga pula)

pero sa pagkakaalam ko, hindi nilalanggam ang aking ama kahit siya naman ang mastermind sa nasabing massacre..

ewan ko ba.. sadyang sweet lang ba talaga ako?
tinikman ko sarili ko.. normal naman ang lasa ah.. maliban na lang sa kamay ko na medyo mapait dahil kakalagay ko lang ng hand creme..
wala pa namang nakapagsasabi sa akin na sweet ako..

hmm..

dahil kaya ..

i should marry a jap guy..hehe

2007-11-04T01:31:00.000-07:00

You Should Date A Japanese Guy!

You're an interesting blend of traditonal and modern
And a Japanese guy is likely to be on your wavelength
Maybe you'll show your love by dying your hair the same color
Or get married in a traditional white kimono!

Which Foreign Guy Should You Date?

islashwah

2007-10-26T11:47:00.001-07:00

it's so frustrating..
i spent all of my money for school..
i've been trying to save up so that i can play RO during the break..
T_T

now, i am stuck here.. at home.. wallowing in self-pity..

penniless..

a starving artist..

==well, i'm not actually starving per se.. i just feel so empty.. stuck here..

dvd marathon.. i'm so sick of watching dvds already..

to compensate for my lost ragna time, i've returned to my OTHER past addiction:

pokemon!!! wah..here is a screencap of me inside my lovely secret base on route120.. ^_^

grr..

2007-10-17T03:16:00.001-07:00

"people like you are the reason people like me need medication.."

i should be relaxing by now..
it's sembreak!!
but what am i doing? i am revising our f*@kin' case study!!!

i hate incompetent people.
geez.. ang simple simple lang ng trabaho ng mga taong yun, ayaw pa nilang tapusin.. tae sila, sabi nila gagawin na raw nila eh bat nakita ko sila kanina sa mall, papunta sa sinehan?!! ha?!

grr.. i'm sick. i'm tired. and i'm SO sick and tired of having to put up with people like you!!!!!!!!!!!!

*whew.. that was a relief.. i just had to let all of that out.. (it's a good thing the persons i'm referring to don't know what the word 'blog' means.. (buti rin friendster lang ang alam nila na pwedeng gamit ng internet...)

-_-

2007-10-17T03:08:00.000-07:00

our exams are finally over..
but a feeling of fear has swept through me..

genuine fear indeed.

wah!!! i really have no idea regarding my academic status as of now.
i just hope my grades are enough get me through the first semester..
it's the third year. i have to focus. i have to exert more effort!

wah!!
i'm so tired.... T_T

when i feel heavy metal and i'm pins and i'm needles

2007-10-09T22:55:00.000-07:00

at sa wakas natapos na rin ang aming duty sa lechepuchataelangkwentangleche na psychiatric/mental health nursing rotation.

at anong napala ko, ask me...

WALA!!!!

hehe.. medyo matagal tagal na rin simula nung huli akong nakapagblag dito.
medyo kinain kasi ng lechepuchataelangkwentangleche na psychiatric/mental health nursing rotation na yan ang oras ko..

nalunod din ako sa mga requirements sa ibang subject.. di pa kasali mga ek-ek responsibilities ko dyan ha!!

i just feel so effing stressed out.. stretched out din..
ewankobah..
pagod na ako..

i almost came to a point where i welcomed eternal repose but luckily i was too tired to act on it.. hehe
oh well... ^_^

at ngayon.. ang pinakahihintay ko sa lahat buong 1st sem ay malapit nang mangyari!!! woohoo!!!!!!
sembreak nah!!!! yahoooooooo!!!!!!

baybay crezii pipol! it was fun, but sorry.. i'd rather receive the same amount and level of fun someplace else!!

woohoo!
*i think i've developed a psychoses during my stay with the psychotic..

Let's Make Bantay!!

2007-09-03T07:06:00.000-07:00

pichur daw to galing sa gaisano sa cebu, toy department..

may na-diskubre akong site na nagpawala ng antok ko nung isang madaling araw na naisipan kong mag illegal interneting..

visit: http://himantayon.com >where people who enjoy observing will feel happy.

wake me up when september ends..

2007-09-01T13:59:00.000-07:00

natapos ang agosto nang hindi ako nakakapagblag..
ngayong setyembre, di ako makakapayag na hindi ako makakapagblag..

T_T

i'm so tired..
within august, i got sick three times..
i hate it when i'm sick..
especially if it's on duty hours..

and now, it's september.. wah!!!

lam niyo ba na kagabi, libre ang pagkain sa okonomiyaki?!!!
di ako nakapaniwala sa aking swerte kahapon..
yan tuloy, napablag ako..
ganito kasi yun.. pagod na pagod talaga ako kahapon kasi nung friday nag-overtime ako sa lahat ng requirements.. tapos maaga pa talaga class namin tapos medyo may sakit pa rin ako kay super badtrip talaga, bwiset!

para di nakakapagod basahin, ililista ko mga nagingswerte ko kahapon..

1. birthday ni mama, good mood siya, umalis din ako ng bahay na good mood, kahit walang tulog..
2. dahil di na ako natulog, di ako na-late sa PE
3. dahil sira ang mata ko, di nila ako sineryoso sa basketball sa PE.. at naka-score ako.. (laking gulat nila!!)
4.wala pala kaming PD kasi wala yung teacher..
5.wala pala kaming english kasi.. ewan.. hehe
6. maaga kaming nagsimula sa psychia kasi walang english tapos nakatulog ako sa klase nang di napapagalitan..
7.pag-gising ko, ididismiss pala kami ng maaga..yey!
8.yung miting sa nsrc, mabilis lang natapos..
9.pagdating sa okon, free food!!
10.binigay sa akin ni drus yung manga niya na dotmatrix.. yey!
11.tinuruan ako ni benjie kung pano maglaro ng pokemon card thingy
12.natalo ko si benjie sa pokemon card thingy
13.pagdating sa bahay, more food!!
14. tinext ako ni mario at dominic.. i miss those two..
15.nahugasan na pala ng katulong namin ang mga pinggan..

and then i slept..now it's 5 in the morning..napakasarap ng tulog koh..ako na yata ang pinaka-kuntentong tao sa mundo..

*ambabaw naman ng kaligayahan ko.. wahaa!!!

-

oh my julay!!

2007-07-14T20:17:00.000-07:00

oh my oh my...

it's july!

my ghulay..

interviewer self:so... what have you been up to?
interviewee self: not much...

*teka.. nakakapagod namang mag-type ng dialogue sa pagitan ng sarili at sarili mo!!
mahaba pa naman ang "interviewer self" at "interviewee self" kung itatayp..

ok.. updates galore:

1.~wee!! natanggap ako sa the rock arts&graphics!! i now live to serve my master..zhel!!! ^_^
2. school nursing is finished..(paalam, mababantot na bata..) i'll really miss those kids..
3. we're having our duty 3pm-11pm shift at the san lorenzo ward of san pedro hospital.. tiresome-bothersome..
4.the prelims are coming up.. i am very very scared.
5.i'm excited about the tantra "mage" event.. (sana makapunta ako.. T_T)
6.rumor has it that our next duty will be at a mental hospital.. (sana totoo!!!! XD)

wow grabeh..

kakapanood ko lang ng HP-OotP kagabi.. T_T di ko yata mabilang ilang beses akong naka-utter ng 'tae' while watching the film..
pero napakahirap sabihing pangit yung film..
parang obligasyon ko rin kasi na panoorin yung film.. T_T waa!! (why did it all have to come down to this?!!)
pero ang galing talaga nung Phelps brothers... the best!!! sila talaga yung characters na nagpapa-OK sa movies..
galing din nung umbridge (pansinin nyong di capital letter name nya kasi undeserving si umbridge!! -_-) na artista.. ang sarap tirisin!!! (kaya effective acting talaga!!)
ano pa ba.. ay oo.. ang ganda ganda ni Ginny!! ^_^
ay oo.. angkyuut na nung love love nila Hermione at Ron.. ^_^
voldie and Dumbledore's fight reminds me of Yoda and that senator/sith lord's fight.. haha!!! red lang yung "light saber" ni Dumbledore. may pagka-starwars theme pa talaga yung soundtrack!!

(sinadya kaya yun o guni-guni ko lang?)

*kung gagawing smiley ang reaction ko pagkatapos ng film, ito yun:
( T_^ ) /weh

deathly hallows... T_T di ko muna babasahin para di agad matapos.. T_T

iha, anong bumabagabag sa iyow?

2007-06-26T01:47:00.000-07:00

*uy maawa naman kayo sa frustrated graphic artist na itow!!

tuwing napapadaan ako sa the rock office bumabaliktad ang laman loob ko.
for 5 seconds i feel as if i channeled the spirit of inside out boy..

siguro pag lalabas na results nung mga yun, susuka ako..

i really want this.
i hope i get in.

sana umubra yung pag-lagay ko ng hearts sa paligid ni GMA sa aking editorial cartooning entry.
sana ma-gets nila yung pag kore-korean ko dun sa comic strip tungkol sa nuclear nuclear thingy ng korea.
sana cute enough yung bata dun sa short story illustration ko para sa standards nila zhel.

nasobrahan na ako ng reject nung highschool.
di ko alam kung mate-take ko kung ma reject na naman ako ngayon.

ay oo nga pala.. duty duty na naman kami..
school nursing..
tuwing umuuwi ako, amoy batang mabantot na ako..
puno ng lapis stains..

at kanina, isa akong rabbit sa roleplaying-lecture namin tungkol sa nutrition para sa preschoolers.. best actress daw, sabi ni maya..

mag-artista na lang kaya ako? puro rabbit roles aking ipoportray.

yeah!

malapit na kaming magdutying muli sa ospital.. sa san pedro hospital san lorenzo ward 3pm-11pm shift.. OB rotation..
*pekpek alert..

narcissistic me..

2007-06-15T06:12:00.000-07:00

The Movie Of Your Life Is Film Noir

So what if you're a little nihilistic at times?
Life with meaning is highly over-rated.
Your best movie matches: Sin City, L. A. Confidential, Blade Runner

If Your Life Was a Movie, What Genre Would It Be?

Star Wars Horoscope for Sagittarius

You are superbly wise and have been known to spread your wisdom widely.
You are impatient and pushy when people take your teachings too lightly.
And your philosophical side always peeks through.

Star wars character you are most like: Yoda

What Is Your Star Wars Horoscope?

stolen blogthings

2007-06-12T12:48:00.000-07:00

Your Expression Number is 4

Practical and down to earth - everything in your life is organized.You are a great writer and teacher. You never forget a detail.Very patient, you have the ability to cultivate talents in difficult fields.
You also tend to have an artistic side. You'd make a great architect or classical musician.You face your responsibilities with a positive attitude - and you always get things done.You are serious, sincere, honest, and faithful.
Sometimes your strong sense of responsibility leads to frustration.You also tend to develop strong likes and dislikes, which border on dogmatism.At you're worst, you can be a dominant disciplinarian.

What's" Your Expression Number?

napakaraming blog ek thingies sa blog nung nakita ko.. ninakaw ko tuloy.. salamat!! (cityhighan siya, i'll post a link of her blog later.. ) adik ako sa mga ganitong bagay.. sadyang narcisa lang talaga ako.. masama ba? oo.. pero buhay ko to.. wahe..

Your Blogging Type is Pensive and Philosophical

You blog like no one else is reading...You tend to use your blog to explore ideas - often in long winded prose.Easy going and flexible, you tend to befriend other bloggers easily.But if they disagree with once too much, you'll pull them from your blogroll!

kalabasa madness

2007-06-12T10:15:00.001-07:00

nag-advanced classes kami, neurology tapos ortho rin.. sabay.. neuro sa umaga at ortho sa hapon..

utak utak...
buto buto..

napaghalu-halo ko tuloy mga sagot ko sa quizzes....amf
*eh pwede rin naman ang cranieoctomy sa ortho ah!!! geez..

nasanay ako sa naging buhay ko nung bakasyon.
nagulat ang utak ko.
nakalimutan ko kung pa'no magpunit ng 1/4 sheet of yellowpaper
'di ko na alam spelling ng second name ko.
bsn-2c pa rin nasusulat ko, kahit ilang beses ko pang pagsabihan ang sarili ko..

kanina, kakatapos lang ng neuro-ortho discussion.. 'di man lang ako nakabawi sa kumalabasang quizzes ko..(*huhuhu)

napagod at na braindrain na agad ako, eh pa-umpisa pa lang ang klase..
ano pa kaya kung may duty na kami uli?!
kailangan ko ng support system..

comfort food?hot fudge sundae
comfort activity?movie watching after duty

kaya lang, nagtitipid ako para sa hp7 at cirque du freak..

ok lang.. i'll always have the internet..
*kawawang nilalang...

kaka'nis,kakamiss

2007-06-09T11:55:00.000-07:00

(clockwise from left to right:dom,prem,feb,rus,kat,ruth,ronelyn,david,etel,marie,cham,aprille,
rommel,aldred, and me)

i was just browsing my files and i happened to see this particular picture of my highschool classmates.. i miss them so much.

this was taken at our house.. and unfortunately, i've forgotten WHEN this was taken..

i remember singing karaoke with aldred and the others after this.. "thunderbolt and lightning, very very frightening!!" ^_^

those were the good 'ol days.. if only i knew college would be THIS hard, i would've done my best NOT TO FINISH highschool.. wahehehehehehe...

*napa-reminisce (tae, tama ba sfellieng?!) ako kasi kanina nung kasama ko si kate sa SM (hi kate! ^_^), nagkwentuhan kami tungkol sa good 'ol kangkong salad days..

wala lang, naiirita lang ako.. ayoko kasi ng pagbabago.. napaka-time consuming/bothersome..
3rd year college na ako.. hanggang ngayon, 'di ko pa rin alam kung tama ba talaga napili ko..

nung nabasa ko blog ni ilsea(hi ilsea! ^_^) kanina tungkol sa kanyang what-ifisms(tama ba yun?!!), nag what-if attack na naman ako.. kung nagUP ako.. bagay sana talaga sa 'kin course ko.. comarts.. T_T

sabi pa ni dom, "hay naku rai, di ka talaga mahihirapang mag-fit in ditoh.."

T_T

it's too late.. wahehe.. but i DO like seeing blood and white linen, so might as well look at the bright side of this course.. konting tiis na lang..

death is the answer.. (ulol!)

a series of fortunate events (incidental report)

2007-06-06T14:24:00.000-07:00

people who don't know each other but are mutually-appreciative
of a certain type of music and discovering this in a serendipitious manner
end up being good friends..

incident #1: linkinpark.. tinugtog sa radyo.. 1st year highschool..
i was arguing with a classmate that linkinpark's name was not limpkinpark
(geez..limpbizkit yun ulol..)..
and that the song from crazytown about a butterfly was not
written/produced/sang by any of the members of that group..
tapos biglang may nakisali.. alam din pala niya yung linkinpark.. tapos memorize din
niya tapos nairita siya dun sa nagsabi na limpkinpark daw pangalan.. insulto daw yun sa kanya..
di ko kilala yung taong yun.. di ko rin alam na
magiging matalik kaming magkaibigan hanggang college..
parehas kami ng ugali..may pagka manic-depressive,
cynical minsan tapos biglang magiging super positive thinker o di kaya
biglang mag-iisip na sana mamatay na sila lahat tapos
biglang gugustuhing i-save ang world.. dahil kaya sa limpkinpark?

incident #2: 1st year paren..i saw the lyrics of teenage dirtbag on one of the songbooks of
my classmates..i sang it, and someone also sang along.. kwentuhan kami.. wah..
nanonood din pala siya ng charmed, nagbabasa ng pugad baboy, at paborito din niya
ang samurai x!!! heck..may pagka-weirdo din.. napapa-isip nga ako minsan.. kung lalake ako,
ganun ako..

incident #3: someone was singing screaming infidelities.. i sang along.. tapos may cd pala siya..
laman ng cd puro alam ko rin.. di kami close.. pagkatapos nun, naging tambayan na namin
yung outlet ng classroom kung saan nakasaksak CD player at speakers niya... close na
kami ngayon..

incident#4: retreat.. di ko alam pano nagsimula. magkatabi kami.. laro ako ng gameboy..
kanta ako ng "let it be" kasi namatay ako sa gameboy at kinuha na ng may-ari laruan niya.
tapos nakita kong nag-smile yung kaklase ko na di umiimik/nagsasalita/nakikihalubilo
sabi ko.. alam mo yun? ano pa alam mo? sige daw.. kanta ka raw..(jokingly)
sabi niya..
"di bagay mga kanta na gusto ko dito.. peaceful masyado lugar" wah..
turns out na yung klasmeyt ko pala ay mahilig sa glamrock/metal wow.. tinanong ko sa kanya..
ano, tulad ng the darkness? sabi niya.. oo!!!! alam mo pala yun?!!! at nagkwentuhan kami ng
super tagal tungkol sa mga nakakalungkot na pangyayari sa musika ng panahon ngayon..
big deal yun kasi.. hindi nagsasalita ang taong yun except kung pinwersa mo..
shock mga kaklase ko.. kami nga last at pinaka-mabilis mag-confession kasi nagkwentuhan
pa kami tungkol sa death.. punkista pala yun.. feel ko satanista din.. hehehehe

incident#5: ka-ragna ko.. kaya medyo close na kami..
may pinatugtog siya na kanta.. tapos kaming dalawa lang naki-sabay sa kanta..
napangiti siya..
from that moment on, kaming dalawa na ang naging consultants ni incident#6

incident#6: di ko alam kung pano kami nag-click.. naki-share yata ako sa player niya..
nakalimutan ko na.. ngayon, musical consultant niya ako tuwing may bago siyang idadagdag
sa kanyang player.. informant na din niya ako.. ang bayad niya saken: pwede ako maki-share
sa player niya kahit gano katagal..

incident#7: seatmate ko.. ang bukambibig lang saken.. nagstudy ka? lakihan mo writing mo ha?
pero one time, sinabihan ako ni incident#6 na "ano nga title nito?" sabi ko akap yan.. imago..
hindi mojofly!!! palitan mo yang naka-sulat sa player mo.kakahiya. laking gulat nung katabi ko..
"bay, rocker man diay ni siya no?!"..tinanong niya ako tungkol sa iba pang banda..
gulat na gulat talaga.. ngayon, binubulungan na niya ako ng tamang sagot pag nakita
niyang may mali akong sagot sa quiz..

incident#8: new student.. di ko kilala, di niya ako kilala. gamit ko player ni incident#6 share
kami ng isa ko pang klasmeyt.. kanta-kanta kami ng jointheclub tanong niya sa klasmeyt ko..
may itchyworms diyan? sabi niya ewan.. sagot ko, meron..
sagot yung newstudent.. "asteeg!!" napalingon ako..
hand gesture agad ako ng asteeg, muzta, at lufeet.. tawa siya.. alam na
niya ngayon kung sino ako at alam ko na ngayon kung sino siya..

asteeg..

it can also work the other way around.. good friends(the really good ones) even if they
were apart for a long time, end up listening to the same type of music without the
influence of the other.. i think it has something to do with brainwaves/brain signals..
na lock-in na siguro yung pattern ng pag-iisip nung dalawang tao na kahit maghiwalay sila,
yung mga interests nila almost parehas pa rin..

ehem, ehem.. alam ni incident #'s 1, 2, at 3 yan.. pati na rin ni kuya dio.. char.

random thoughts from 3:35am-3:50am

2007-06-06T11:45:00.000-07:00

school starts soon. we're having advanced classes on neurologic and orthopaedic nursing. i wonder if i'll ever get through this semester.my tongue hurts.i miss tiger.i have to buy black fabric paint tomorrow.

we had our level 3 orientation. bothersome.i just spent those 5 hours listening to music and sketching.my stomach was rumbling. that serving of chicken steak was welcome indeed.

my mom's watching jumong again.water spilled all over me.chicago's not such a crappy band after all.i hate myself for reading spoilers of cirque du freak.

i wonder when i'll get my kamp pag-asa certificate.i hope i get to join the aap members this saturday.i'm wishing that it will rain.

i hope my sister downloads that pokemon crystal game version soon.i wish mario and dominic will invite me to go on a food trip again.

*and i wonder if you ever think about me anymore. and i wonder if you ever think about me when you're bored(<--i wonder-diffuser)

i shouldnt've deleted that diffuser song. i hope my uniforms still fit me once school starts. my tongue is killing me.

i have to write as much as possible even if i don't really HAVE anything to write about as of the moment since i won't be able to go online as mush as i'd like by the time school starts.

i haven't been watching the news lately. peter adams is now online.enzo just came back from new york.angie spent a week in manila.dominic roamed baguio.i regret not travelling during the summer.my trip to midsayap was pathetic.

i want to go to the beach.too effing late.i was too lazy to leave the house.my cousins kept on urging me to go to mati.i wish i went with them.if i did, i would've had unlimited access to their karaoke machine and be fed fine food throughout the day(since my uncle owns a restaurant/lodgehouse).

joaqui tupas of hapinas just greeted me.i think that was so cool of him.i have to rest soon if i don't want to feel like someone who has just been beaten up.

may lahing aswang kaya ako?

2007-05-30T11:51:00.000-07:00

*i just noticed that i usually become hungry and mentally alert at around 3am.. di ba yan ang oras kung kailan nagsisilabasan ang creatures of the night/dawn?

napatawa ako sa isang find ko sa blogs.. galing sa isang bibe: http://bibeganda.blogspot.com/2007/05/movie-translations.html

movie translations na malufet:

1. Black hawk down - ibong maitim sa ibaba
2. dead man's chest - dodo ng patay
3. i know what you did last summer - uyy... aminin!
4. love, actually - sa totoo lang, pag-ibig
5. million dollar baby - 50 million pisong sanggol (it depends on the exchange rate of the country)
6. the blair witch project - ang proyekto ng bruhang si blair
7. mary poppins - si mariang may putok
8. snakes on a plane - nag-ahasan sa ere
9. the postman always rings twice - ang kartero kapag dumutdot laging dalawang beses
10. sum of all fears - takot mo, takot ko, takot nating lahat
11. swordfish - talakitok
12. pretty woman - ganda ng lola mo
13. robin hood, men in tights - si robin hood at ang mga felix bakat
14. 4 weddings & a funeral - kahit 4 na beses ka pang magpakasal, mamamatay ka rin
15. the good, the bad and the ugly - ako, ikaw, kayong lahat
16. harry potter and the sorcerer's stone - adik si harry, tumira ng shabu
17. click - isang pindot ka lang
18. brokeback mountain - may nawasak sa likod ng bundok ng tralala /bumigay sa bundok
19. the day of the death - ayaw tumayo (ng mga patay)
20. waterworld - basang-basa
21. there's something about mary - may kwan sa ano ni maria
22. employee of the month - ang sipsip
23. resident evil - ang biyenan
24. kill bill - kilitiin sa bilbil
25. the grudge - lintik lang ang walang ganti
26. nightmare before christmas - binangungot sa noche buena
27. annie hall - ang butas ni annie
28. never been kissed - pangit kasi
29. gone in 60 seconds - 1 round, tulog
30. the fast and the furious - ang bitin, galit
31. too fast, too furious - kapag sobrang bitin, sobrang galit
32. dude, where's my car - dong, anong level ulit tayo nag-park?
33. beauty and the beast - ang asawa ko at ang nanay nya
34. the lord of the rings - ang alahero

may nawasak sa likod ng bundok ng tralala!!! my ghulay..

*i want to suck your blood...(and go back to sleep)

she said baby, it's 3am it must be lonely!!

2007-05-26T19:25:00.000-07:00

nag-aantay ako ng antok..
ang tagal niyang dumating..
andito ako sa kwarto..
nagta-type sa dilim..
tulog na si baia..
may sinabi siya kanina..
nananaginip..
sabi niya.."ang telephone oh!!!" ano kaya ang nasa telephone?
may asong tumatahol...
naririnig ko rin tunog ng aircon ng kapitbahay..
napagalitan pa ako ni mama kasi dapat na daw akong matulog

.sabi ko..ok ma, logout ko na to..haha.

sana lang di niya marinig tunog ng keyboard ko..
grey na lahat yung mga tao-tao sa ym..
sana may mumu para enjoy..
wag lang ipis..please...

di ako titigil type hangga't di ako aantukin..

rosebud;!;!;!;!;!;!;!;!;!;!;!;!;!;!;!;!;!;!;!;!;!;!;!;!;!;!;!;!;!klapaucius;!;!;!;!;!;!;!;!;!;!;!;!;!;!;!;!;!;!;!;!;!;!;!;!;!;!;!;!

medyo namimiss ko na ang aking gaming days..
isa sa mga insomnia cure(at roots) ko...
trigger-happy ako..lahat pinipindot ko..
gusto ko talagang tinatype yung
pampadami ng pera sa the sims..
pindot ng pindot..

;!;!;!;!;!;!;!;!;!;!;!;!;!;!;!;!;!;!;!;!;!;!;!;!;!;!;!;!;!;!;!;!;!;!;!;!;!;!;!;!;!;!;!;!;!;!;!;!;!;!

as in...
ragna naman trip kong pumatay ng pupa
nung bata pa ako..
tapos disabled yung auto-patay..
pindot lang ng pindot!!

paborito kong pinapatay mga greatest general
nung archer na ako..

as in.. ds.. papak!!!ds.. papak!!.. ds..papak!!!!!

haay... tuwang-tuwa na ako dun.. lalo na pag
may maiiwan na object pagkatapos..

ds..papak!!!!

pero nung na-hunter na,, charge arrow!!

kashing.. papapapak!!!! wohoo!!!

kaya lang namamatay agad kalaban kaya di na enjoy.. pagkatapos kong ma2nd job, tumigil na ako..

end of gaming days..lecheng college..

diablo rin.. gusto kong ginagamit yung barber..
gupit-gupit!! hehe.. usually pangalan na gamit ko,
zonrox..
tripping ako patay nung mga mukhang bayawak..
gusto ko talaga tunog.. tapos puro dugo..yeah!!

speaking of dugo.. enjoy rin gta!! paborito ko
gamitin yung chainsaw... hehehe
quake rin.. paborito ko gauntlet,

pinakagusto kong pinapatay ay yung walking eyeball..yeah!!

*yawn

haay sa wakas.. gudmorning pipol!!!bb po..

the end is near

2007-05-20T05:08:00.000-07:00

malapit na matapos ang summer.
at ano ang napala ko? WALA!!!!!!!!!

T_T

the highlights of my summer happpened during the start of summer: an outing with my highschool friends and my volunteering at kamp pag-asa..

the rest of my summer consisted of sitting in front of machines that need to be stared at.. (TV at komfyuter)

i should've gone to the beach..
i should've kept in touch with old friends..

should've should've

tae.

ang income generating gimiks ko naman ay tinapatan ng aking income depleting habits..
ang aking P2,000.00 na kita sa pagtuturo ng sining ay ibinuhos ko sa pagkain.. T_T

oo nga nanglibre ako.. pero di ko tinago ang mga resibo(walang remembrance ng aking perah!!!! T_T)

*bummer summer? maybe..pero at least mas productive ako di tulad nung huli akong nagbakasyon..

ifagfatawad mo aking kafangahasan..

2007-05-14T02:52:00.000-07:00

ninakaw ko to sa blog ng iba.
i want to know about you people.. pwede paki copy at sagutin nyo tapos i-post sa comments?
salamat..

if..

If I were a month I would be: December.
If I were a day of the week I would be: Wednesday.
If I were a time of day I would be: 9pm
If I were a planet I would be: Vegeta
If I were a sea animal I would be: Hermit Crab
If I were a direction I would be: North
If I were a piece of furniture I would be: Rocking Chair \m/
If I were a sin I would be: sloth
If I were a historical figure I would be: dead
If I were a liquid I would be: seawater
If I were a stone, I would be: lapiz lazuli
If I were a tree, I would be: Willow tree
If I were a bird, I would be: falcon
If I were a tool, I would be: scissors
If I were a flower/plant, I would be: makahiya
If I were a kind of weather, I would be: mild rain
If I were a mythical creature, I would be: nymph
If I were a musical instrument, I would be: cello
If I were an animal, I would be: a wild cat
If I were a color, I would be: purple
If I were an emotion, I would be: melancholia
If I were a vegetable, I would be: cabbage
If I were a sound, I would be: inaudible
If I were an element, I would be: Iridium
If I were a car, I would be: Volks
If I were a song, I would be: Across The Universe
If I were a movie, I would be directed by: Spike Lee
If I were a book, I would be written by: Antoine de Saint Exupery
If I were a food, I would be: Chicken Adobo
If I were a place, I would be: obrero
If I were a material, I would be: Cotton
If I were a taste, I would be: Spicy
If I were a scent, I would be: Lavender
If I were a religion, I would be: Zen Buddhism
If I were a word, I would be: incapacitating
If I were a body part I would be: hands
If I were a facial expression I would be: distant.
If I were a subject in school I would be: child psychiatry
If I were a cartoon character I would be: Darla
If I were a shape I would be a/an: parallelogram
If I were a number I would be: 5

tasteless nothingness

2007-05-08T02:53:00.000-07:00

i think i've grown numb.

my friend just told me that i have become numb.. he said he can't remember the last time he's seen me cry or look sad even if sad and crying-worthy events are happening.

i think he's right.

i can't remember the last time i've cried..
the only expressions i've used for the past few months are happiness and worry..
(and i have reason to believe that it hasn't only been months but YEARS)

no emotion.. like that guy from samuraix who smiles all the time..

it's not because i haven't been feeling bad at all..
i just can't seem to muster up the energy to feel emotion (let alone SHOW it)..

and recently, people are starting to notice..

but i can't help it..
i'm content.

(even if there is still SO MUCH MORE that is lacking in my life)

i think i am ready to die.

*oooh.. kakatakot naman yan na statement!

sweet nothingness

2007-05-06T11:17:00.000-07:00

now i never meant to do you wrong..

that's what i came here to say.

but if i was wrong, then i'm sorry.. (but don't let it stand in our way)

now my head just aches when i think of..
the things that i shouldn'tve done..

and life is for living.. (we all know)
but i don't wanna live it alone..

this is part of the lyrics to a song by coldplay.. i keep on playing this over and over on my player ever since i saved it..

the melody is just too nice.. (even if the lyrics are so sad)

it's not really about the message of the song that matters to me.. it's the music..

_

2007-05-04T08:58:00.000-07:00

i can't think of a title for this post.

this post is just an extension of my reaction to a friend's blog.

again, i'll speak freely..

oo nga. tama nga si kate.
kailangan ba talaga nating isipin ang iniisip ng iba tungkol sa atin?

i used to be insecure about a LOT of things especially during my elementary years (in a private "high class" school)

i ended up feeling bad about myself..

life is unfair.

if it were not for the people who see us for what we are and not for what we seem to be, we might not be able to survive this cruel, biased world..

*tila nakakahilo at sadyang napaka-iksi ng taglish blog na itow!!

of chicken, firetrucks, and novelty songs..

2007-04-25T01:58:00.000-07:00

finally, i have returned from Kamp Pag-asa..
oh what an experience it has been.

i arrived at that camp feeling like an outcast.
but after the camp, it's like i was leaving home..

i miss the children.
i miss my fellow volunteers.
i miss the camp staff..

but i definitely won't miss the food.. hehe

'nuf with the english..

pucha napagod talaga ako sa camp na yun.. nag-alaga ako ng isang bulag pero parang tatlong bulag ang binabantayan ko.. "three blind mice, three blind mice... "

yung mga autistic ang okay..

paborito ko yung mahilig magpa-kalmot ng likod at ang kaya lang sabihin ay mga conversation ng ibang tao at least 2 hours ago.. (how cool is that?!!)
he keeps repeating "aruy, nipilit ang chicken.." over and over whenever he is calm..

naobserbahan ko ring special children are curiously responsive to novelty songs.. bakit kaya?
hmm..

ano pa ba..

pagkain namin puro manok, kung di manok, boiled egg naman.. geez..

first time ko ring maligo gamit ang tubig galing sa firetruck.. enjoy talaga mga bata.. (pati volunteers)

nagkaroon ako ng bagong mga kaibigan..

ano pa ba..

ah basta! ako ngayon ay nagbalik mula sa Kamp Pag-asa na puno ng pag-asang makakabalik akong muli next year..

at home ako eh.. (does this mean that i am "special" too?!)

nakuha ko nah!

2007-04-17T01:09:00.000-07:00

i've been trying to figure out how to read and follow tabs for almost a week now and i am proud to say that i finally understand them..

wee!

nagsibalikan na mga kalyo ko.
i'm currently working on my speed in shifting chords..

sa ngayon ang alam ko pa lang tugtugin ay chorus(?) nung favorite song ko ng dashboard confessional

ender will save us all..

i wanna give you, whatever you need..
what is it you need? is it what i need?

i wanna give you, whatever you need!
what is it you need? is it within me?

it's hard to explain how i am getting by on so little from you.
it's hard to believe that i would let myself get so right into you.
there's gotta be something that would be worthwhile for me to give to you.
we need a connection but you seem to push me far away from you....

feel na feel ko talaga pagtugtog pero hanggang dun lang nakuha ko sa pagbabasa ng tabs ei.
kaka-frustrate tuloy..

my playing really sounds like the real thing! if only i can figure out how to play those things with numbers enclosed in a parentheses..

oh well..

proud pa rin ako! self-taught tabs reader yata to..

^_^

death list

2007-04-14T08:32:00.000-07:00

this is from my blog in friendster (after i watched the movie 300):

death death death...
lalala..

ang ganda nung pagkamatay nila leonidas sa 300!!

wow!

kainggit..
sana ganun rin ka-astig tingnan kamatayan ko..
death by arrow shower..
~wee!!

since ito na rin topic ko, ililista ko ang aking top10 pinaka-OK
na "mode of death" na nakita ko sa sine't telebisyon..

1. yung sa CSI-LV na tao na galit sa mga CSI, nanghingi siya ng 1M in exchange for Nick tapos dala na ni Grissom pera pero binomba niya sarili niya (kasama ang 1M dollars)
2. yung kay O-ren Ishii kung saan nag-away sila ni The Bride tapos na slice brain niya pero di naman nasira face niya.
3.yung kay Bill naman na di niya alam na pinatay na pala siya ni The Bride gamit yung pindot-pindot method.
4. si Prof. Xavier, inagnas nang buhay.. wow.
5. yung sa crouching tiger hidden dragon, so romantic.. date-suicide.. sabay silang tumalon sa bangin ng kanyang yayabs..
6.yung kay Boromir, kahit puro arrow na siya, pumapatay pa rin ng mga Uruk-Hai.. napaka-noble.
7.yung kay Spike, inagnas din siya ng buhay, napasok spirit(?) niya sa locket thingy, tapos binalik ni Fred sa Angel..
8. yung mama ni Amelie Poulain, nahulugan ng nagsu-suicide na babae.. take note: kakalabas pa lang nila sa simbahan nun!
9. yung mga lalake sa kung fu hustle na namatay dahil dun sa nakahiga na gitara. (trengtreng..igs!)
10. yung sa 300 naman, natuhog na siya.. hinila niya deeper yung bbq stick to get closer to the tuhoger to make patay..(wekwekwek..)

"ayoko ngang mamatay habang natutulog.. Di na ako magigising nyan!!"-Baia

i'll be here in a while.. (ain't going nowhere)

2007-03-06T01:11:00.000-08:00

it's been a while since i last posted something "organized"..
my life's become quite cluttered lately..
(it's not a mess, just cluttered..)

how have i spent my past "unbloggedy" days?
let me count the ways:

1. wandering the internet without doing anything productive or gaining anything profitable..
2. going into trance-like states during my internet-free/school-free moments..
3. sketching eyes and other face parts during semi-dull discussions at school..

the above-mentioned activities pretty much sums up my life. geez..
at my age, i should be doing something other than these..
/wah

it's been a while since i last posted something organized.
and i think it will take an even longer amount of time before i will
be able to post something worth reading..

gomen..

tangina mo andaming nagugutom sa mundo, fashionista ka pa rin?!

2007-03-04T06:22:00.000-08:00

may uod kanina sa CR..
tinitigan ko siya. tinitigan niya rin ako (feel ko)..
nagtitigan kami..
pagkatapos nun, umalis ako ng CR.. nakalimutan ko na kung ano ang pakay ko..
naalala ko na naiwan ko pala salamin ko sa banyo kaya ako pumunta dun..
sinuot ko specs ko tapos pagtingin ko sa sahig, hindi pala yun uod..
linya pala yun ng tiles... patitig-titig effect pa ako..

ehehehehehehehehehehehehehe

*ang title ay walang kinalaman sa post.

*ang post ay walang kinalaman sa kahit ano.

kainis ang blogger

2007-02-26T01:23:00.000-08:00

ok na sana yung blog ko tapos nakalimutan ko username ko sa gmail...

tae.

oh well...

new year, new blogspot..

(yet again..)