what in the what what abi nako di na nako ni maopen na blog this is alive pa rin pala?

pre life crisis

this movie is all way too relevant right now

Still feeling pretty useless..
I've had to put up with trying to recover from one failure after another.

I'm on my way to recovery, I guess.

B u t t h i s i s t a k i n g l o n g e r t h a n e x p e c t e d

self-doubt and procrastination.

I've done everything a good girl was supposed to do: obeyed commands, followed the curfew, got good grades, made friends with fellow good girls, avoided relationships, attended mass, took my vitamins..

Where's my reward now?

*wala lang. feel ko lang mag-rant sa ngayon. unhealthy na ang may mabigat na feeling sa loob eh.. di muna ako kikilos hangga't wala pa akong final decision as to how I would like my life to be. will probably remove this post once I get my act together.*

it's game time

oh wow sunod-sunod na nakaka-low self-esteem events ang nangyari saken.

take note.. first 2 months of 2011 pa lang yan ha.

nawawalan na nga ako ng drive mabuhay eh..

pero di ako suicidal ha.

and I REJECT YOUR PITY.

ito lang siguro ang brutal na paraan ng cosmos sa pa-"guide" saken sa
tunay ko na destiny.


sa ngayon, aayusin ko muna buhay ko.
mag-eexercise sa umaga at iinom ng tubig.
matutulog nang sapat at kakain ng gulay.
eebak araw-araw at once a month na lang
magpapaka-wasted.

sa ngayon, yan lang mga bagay-bagay na may control pa ako eh.
ang cosmos na ang bahala sa iba.

pag-ibig

Hello
I've waited here for you
Everlong

Come down
And waste away with me
Down with me

If everything could ever feel this real forever
If anything could ever be this good again

oh man.

been feeling pretty paranoid lately..

wala kasi akong ibang ginagawa sa bahay kaya marami tuloy akong iniisip.

maging busy na sana ako uli uie...


geez!