eh kasi nga eh.

You Don't know Me- Ben Folds and Regina Spektor

I wanna ask you -

Do you ever sit and wonder,

It's so strange

That we could be together for

So long, and never know, never care

What goes on in the other one's head?

Things I've felt but I've never said

You said things that I never said

So I'll say something that I should have said long ago:

(You don't know me) You don't know me at all

(You don't know me) You don't know me at all (at all)

You could have just propped me up on the table like a mannequin

Or a cardboard stand-up and paint me (paint me)

Any face that you wanted me

To be seen.

We're Damned by the existential moment where

We saw the couple in the coma and

It was we were the cliché,

But we carried on anyway.

So, sure, I could just close my eyes.

Yeah, sure, trace and memorize,

But can you go back once you know

(You don't know me) You don't know me at all

(You don't know me) You don't know me at all (at all)

(You don't know me) You don't know me at all

(You don't know me) You don't know me

If I'm the person that you think I am (Ah ah ahh)

Clueless chump you seem to think I am (Ah ah ahhh)

So easily led astray, An errant dog who occasionally escapes and needs a shorter leash, then

Why the f**k would you want me back?!

Maybe it's because

(You don't know me at all) Ahhh ah Ahhh ah

(You don't know me, you don't know me.) Ahhh ah Ahhh ah

So, what I'm trying to say is What (What?)

I'm trying to tell you It's not gonna come out like

I wanna say it cause I know you'll only change it. (Say it.)

(You don't know me) You don't know me at all

(You don't know me) You don't know me at all (at all)

(You don't know me) You don't know me at all (You don't know me)

You don't know me at all (at all) What?

why lungs, why?

ok.
ganito kasi yun.
-_____-

i hate myself right now.

i've been procrastinating a lot lately.

di naman ako ganung klase ng tao.
ako'y active.
may time pa nga na medyo active ako sa aktibista scene eh.

di ako ganito.

dahil siguro nasanay ako sa relaxed mode kaya ako nagkakaganito.
oo nga. may pressure rin naman na binibigay saken mga magulang ko.
pero di naman ako tinatablan.

hmp.

galit ako sa sarili ko ngayon pero tanggap ko naman ang sarili ko ngayon.
at dahil tanggap ko ang sarili ko (who happens to be such a pessimistic piece of shit) sa ngayon, mas
lalo tuloy tumitindi pagka-inis ko sa sarili ko.

so..

what now, dumb-ass?!!



ok. medyo may na-achieve naman ako kahit papa'no ngayong araw kasi napa-check ko na yung DR exhibit form ko.
pero ano eh.. parang.. grr..

may empty something pa rin.
pakiramdam ko kulang pa rin ako sa effort.

nung may pasok pa, kung anu-ano pinaggagagawa ko para lang sa "glory" ng grade.
pero ngayon, wala na kasing grades..
wala nang magsasabi sa akin kung ano dapat ko gawin, kung pa'no ko dapat gawin, et cetera.

shet.

bukas babalik ako sa school para ipapirma DR exhibit form ko. sana naman tama ang ginawa ko na format. sana naman.
sinunod ko naman ang instructions, so hopefully di ganun kagrabe ang problema ko bukas.


ano ba 'tong empty something na 'to?!!!
sheesh..
wala sa mga tried and tested diversionary tactics ko ang umuubra.
parang yung tipo ng sakit ng ulo na di naman ganun kasakit slash nakakasira ng daily routine kaya di mo tinatapatan
ng gamot pero alam mo naman na may mali talagang nangyayari sa loob ng ulo mo..
yung tipong ganun nga.. parang benign tumor..
nandyan siya, alam mo na di siya dapat nandun, pero ok lang rin naman kaya di mo inaaksyunan.

potah.

help.