what a crazy random happenstance!

so.. di ako nakapasa sa davao doc..

meh.

so.. nakapasa ako sa sutherland..

yeh.

time to make some money, y'all!

my day, in excruciating detail

ok.. decided to revive my log so here i go reviving it..
di naman ako yung tipo ng tao na poetic..
di rin ako yung tipo ng tao na maraming reklamo sa buhay..
pero ako yung tipo ng tao na maraming excess mind energy na walang maisipang pagbuhusan nito..
methinks this is the reason behind my creating blogposts..

kanya-kanyang trip lang yan, mga tsong..

actually, i have a regularly updated blog on tumblr, pero para yun sa mga nakikita ko sa net na masarap i-display..

etong blogspot ko, para sa mga nakikita ko sa life na masarap i-kwento.. personal rant page ko rin to.. haha



my day in excruciating detail:
woke up at aroung 9am but it was still dark and cold and comfy so i decided to stay in bed..
stared and philosophized in bed until 11am..
nag-"good morning" lang ako sandali kay crooks at kinwento ko rin yung awesome dream ko tapos bumangon na ako..

i think mga 11:30 am na yun.. haha

drank choco milk and heated up the last two pizza slices left over from the new year celebration..

received an sms from davao doc that my grades were missing so i panicked and jumped in the showers at dumiretso sakay ng taxi papuntang davao doc para hanapin kung nasan na ang grades ko..

turns out my grades were there all along, mali lang ang date na nasulat kaya nalito sila.. whew.. false alarm.
sumakay ng jeep pauwi..

tulala mode lang ako dun sa kasabay ko sa jeep na may girl-stache..

pag-uwi ko, pinakain ko si jarjarbinks.. tapos net..

at ngayon, gutom na ako.. ano kaya lunch? (thinking)

resolutions (hope this works)

1. resolved, that ira shall drink at least 5 glasses of water a day
2. resolved, that ira shall fix her posture
3. resolved, that ira saves at least 20 pesos per week
4. resolved, that ira is asleep before 2am
5. resolved, that ira will no longer ride the wrong jeepney
6. resolved, that ira will print those enzoDgrup shirts
7. resolved, that ira reads (and finishes) 1 book a month
8. resolved, that ira will drink coke only when offered.
9. resolved, that ira fixes her things every 2 weeks.
10. resolved, that ira gets a job.
    

1st post of 2011

just thought i should post something to start something..

this is going to be a totally awesome year.

i feel.

so erm.. i'll be having my job interview this Wednesday and surprisingly, di ako kinakabahan..

hmm..






oh wow.. ano kaya mangyayari this year no?

sa 2010 kasi andameng nangyari saken na totally unexpected happenings... ano na naman kaya ngayon?

lest i forget the awesomeness that is 2010

woah december na at malapit na uli birthday ko.. ano nga ba ang napala ko?

pag tinitingnan ko buhay ko in terms of mga bagay na pinag-gagagawa ko buong araw,

mukhang walang kwenta.. tv-kain-jebs-net.. etchetera..

pero when you take a step backward at tiningnan mo lahat ng nangyari saken this year..

oh wow..

napaka-YEAH!

1. did some volunteer peace-building work for the Mindanao Peacebuilding Institute

*sino bang kilala mong peace-builder ha? ha?!! oh diba awesome?!!!

2. after years of single-ness... i am now a doubleness..

*akalain mo? ako?!! si ira??? magkaka-boypren ng kasing awesome ni pol?? oh wow!! akalain mo..

3. tapos na ako sa aking IV therapy training at life support thingy oh yeh

*i can insert an intravenous lines and check out veins and save choking drowning people and stuff.. how cool is that?!!! yeh!

4. i taught anatomy and physiology to a bunch of tribes people and served as a translator.

*ilang tao ba ang kilala nyo na translator slash anatomy teacher sa mga old people na 21 yrs. old lang ha? ha?

5. became an assistant to forensic anthropologists for a week in South Cotabato.

*i helped put together human skeletons!! what's up with that?!! oh diba oh diba ibang klase?!!!

kaya pa...

semi-surviving in the ward with the little experience i possess..

ang hirap magkunwari na as if alam ko ang ginagawa ko..

dapat magmukha na akong legit.

medyo kulang pa kasi sa confidence..

tsaka umandar na naman ang misconception ng common tao na "goody-goody" masyado ako..

ang tahimik ko kasi..

eh minsan naman talaga kung wala akong masabi, shempre di talaga ako magsasalita!

feel ko tulay napaka-boring ko na na tao..

kahit alam kong hindi naman..

gotta get over these self-esteem issues.

hmm.. thinking.

so nagsimula na nga pala ang training ko sa hospital..

nurse na daw ako kunwari..

hmm..

registered professional na ako at lahat-lahat pero hanggang ngayon di ko pa rin talaga feel.

ano ba yan..

sinabi ko sa sarili ko dati, susundin ko lang gusto nila mama na maka-graduate ako college pagkatapos libre na akong mamili ano gusto ko gawin sa buhay ko..

nakalimutan kong may board exam pa nga pala.. so sinabi ko sa sarili ko ipapasa ko muna board exams at pagkatapos libre na akong gawin kahit ano sa buhay ko..

tapos biglang..

hmm..

sayang rin kasi tong opportunity sa sosyal na hospital..

hmm..

kaso nakaka-walang gana eh.. napaka-baba tingin ko sa sarili ko sa ward kasi wala akong alam.

what now?

oh god.

feeling mighty pissed

22 years old na ako.

wala pa ngang trabaho pero come on, pwede konting respeto?

demmit. pwedeng bigyan nyoko ng konting freedom?

ano yan ha? ilang taon rin akong naging masunuring bata. hanggang ngayon masunurin pa rin kahit di na bata. demmit.

san ka nakarinig ng 22-year old na may curfew? ha?! ha?!

bat ba hanggang ngayon kelangan ko pa ring ipaliwanag kung san ako galing at ano pinaggagagawa ko?

di naman ako tulad ng ibang anak dyan na bigla lang nawawala for days on end at walang modo at walang respeto at di sumusunod at moocher..

tapos sasabihin mo na irresponsible ako?

tapos sasabihin mo na idiot ako?

tapos sasabihin mo na insignificant ako?

tapos sasabihin mo na childish ako?

hinahayaan kitang tratuhin ako ng ganyan kasi nakaka-net ako.

at shempre, may respeto ako sa mga taong mas matalino sa akin.

ok. di ako yung tipo ng tao na ranter..

pero medyo sobra na yata.

mag-iipon na talaga ako para maka-alis dito.

and i may never return.

ika nga ni jesuschristsuperstar: "think while you still have me, move while you still see me.. you'll be lost and you'll be sorry when i'm goooooone!!!"

para lang may post for 2010

erm... this was taken during

the plurk meet-up.. (february, i think)

yep..

ultra nice.

check out the guy in yellow sitting across the bespectacled girl in grey.

this picture was taken 4 months(?) after that plurk meet-up..

wala lang.. :D

Nagpapasalamat ako.. hehe.. ^_^

ang lungkot lungkot ko last week, grabe...

pero buti na lang talaga nandyan mga kaibigan ko..

meron akong karamay..hehe.. salamat! salamat!!

Last week, nung nasa height na ako ng depression, nag-karaoke kami..

dahil dun, medyo gumaan pakiramdam ko..

special thanks!

angie-salamat sa movie discussions at book reviews!

elreen-forever friends na talaga tayo as in grabeng grabe na to!

ethyl-sa chika chika all the way forever and a day!

raime-sa corny jokes galore at kwentuhan natin sa upuan!

maya-i rely on you a lot lumalakas ako pag nandyan ka!

marian-dahil napakacheerful mo at nandyan ka forever!

kevin-dahil di ka pumapatol sa kung anu-anong shit idol!

david-salamat sa jpop at happy shiny stuff at sadyang napakabait mo!

dominic-dyan ka lang ha, wag ka aalis! as in wag! as in! as in! internet cafe natin ha?

mario-dyan ka lang rin ha, wag ka aalis! as in wag! as in! as in! internet cafe natin ha?

kuya dio-kahit gano pa kalayo ang manila, you are always with me! friends forever!

"I'll get by with a little help from my friends.. I'm gonna try with a little help from my friends.."

:)

With a Little Help From My Friends-The Beatles

What would you think if I sang out of tune
Would you stand up and walk out on me?
Lend me your ears and I'll sing you a song
And I'll try not to sing out of key

Oh I get by with a little help from my friends
Mm I get high with a little help from my friends
Mm going to try with a little help from my friends

What do I do when my love is away?(Does it worry you to be alone?)
How do I feel by the end of the day?(Are you sad because you're on your own?)

No I get by with a little help from my friends
Mm I get high with a little help from my friends
Mm going to try with a little help from my friends

(Do you need anybody?)I need somebody to love
(Could it be anybody?)I want somebody to love

(Would you believe in a love at first sight?)Yes I'm certain that it happens all the time
(What do you see when you turn out the light?)I can't tell you, but I know it's mine

Oh I get by with a little help from my friends
Mm I get high with a little help from my friends
Oh I'm going to try with a little help from my friends

(Do you need anybody?)I just need somebody to love
(Could it be anybody?)I want somebody to love

Oh I get by with a little help from my friends
Mm going to try with a little help from my friends
Oh I get high with a little help from my friends
Yes I get by with a little help from my friends

With a little help from my friends

While My Guitar Gently Weeps-The Beatles, White Album

I look at you all see the love there that's sleeping
While my guitar gently weeps
I look at the floor and I see it need sweeping
Still my guitar gently weeps

I don't know why nobody told you how to unfold you love
I don't know how someone controlled you they bought and sold you

I look at the world and I notice it's turning
While my guitar gently weeps
With every mistake we must surely be learning
Still my guitar gently weeps

I don't know how you were diverted you were perverted too
I don't know how you were inverted no one alerted you

I look at you all see the love there that's sleeping
While my guitar gently weeps
I look at you all
Still my guitar gently weeps

*nalulungkot lang ako kasi di na ako nakakapag-gitara, and i think my guitar is INDEED gently weeping because of that sad, sad, fact. T___T

okey..buang na ako

ok. i don't feel like sleeping just yet.

i miss the glory days of blogging. i'd rave about some stupid thing and my online buddies would react, then i'd comment on their blogs..then we'd comment back..et cetera et cetera..

i think facebook ruined that.
bloghopping used to be such fun, now all i get are worthless pages with uninteresting stuff/ads..

teka.. ba't english to?!!!

hooh.

eh kasi naman kasi, english ang pinapakinggan ko.. the beatles, baby!!

hmp..ano banamantong nangyayari sa bahay namin ngayon, halos lahat sila nag-aaway..
ako naiipit..

ako yung ambassador of peace..
pucha..

anobah......

weh.

i almost had a panic attack just a few seconds ago.
been feeling pretty paranoid lately with all this crap about exhibit forms and the board exams and stuff..

all this fuss about these PRC requirements is so messed up.
heck, i shouldn't even be worrying this much!it's the pressure!
it's ganging up on me.. geez.

can't help but constantly obssess about all the stuff i have to do.. demmit.

it's a good thing my friends are still with me, ready to listen to my ramblings, et cetera..
but the fact that some of them are way too many steps ahead of me in our requirements makes mefeel all queasy and panicky inside.


need to find something else to obssess about.. soon!

eh kasi nga eh.

You Don't know Me- Ben Folds and Regina Spektor

I wanna ask you -

Do you ever sit and wonder,

It's so strange

That we could be together for

So long, and never know, never care

What goes on in the other one's head?

Things I've felt but I've never said

You said things that I never said

So I'll say something that I should have said long ago:

(You don't know me) You don't know me at all

(You don't know me) You don't know me at all (at all)

You could have just propped me up on the table like a mannequin

Or a cardboard stand-up and paint me (paint me)

Any face that you wanted me

To be seen.

We're Damned by the existential moment where

We saw the couple in the coma and

It was we were the cliché,

But we carried on anyway.

So, sure, I could just close my eyes.

Yeah, sure, trace and memorize,

But can you go back once you know

(You don't know me) You don't know me at all

(You don't know me) You don't know me at all (at all)

(You don't know me) You don't know me at all

(You don't know me) You don't know me

If I'm the person that you think I am (Ah ah ahh)

Clueless chump you seem to think I am (Ah ah ahhh)

So easily led astray, An errant dog who occasionally escapes and needs a shorter leash, then

Why the f**k would you want me back?!

Maybe it's because

(You don't know me at all) Ahhh ah Ahhh ah

(You don't know me, you don't know me.) Ahhh ah Ahhh ah

So, what I'm trying to say is What (What?)

I'm trying to tell you It's not gonna come out like

I wanna say it cause I know you'll only change it. (Say it.)

(You don't know me) You don't know me at all

(You don't know me) You don't know me at all (at all)

(You don't know me) You don't know me at all (You don't know me)

You don't know me at all (at all) What?

why lungs, why?

ok.
ganito kasi yun.
-_____-

i hate myself right now.

i've been procrastinating a lot lately.

di naman ako ganung klase ng tao.
ako'y active.
may time pa nga na medyo active ako sa aktibista scene eh.

di ako ganito.

dahil siguro nasanay ako sa relaxed mode kaya ako nagkakaganito.
oo nga. may pressure rin naman na binibigay saken mga magulang ko.
pero di naman ako tinatablan.

hmp.

galit ako sa sarili ko ngayon pero tanggap ko naman ang sarili ko ngayon.
at dahil tanggap ko ang sarili ko (who happens to be such a pessimistic piece of shit) sa ngayon, mas
lalo tuloy tumitindi pagka-inis ko sa sarili ko.

so..

what now, dumb-ass?!!



ok. medyo may na-achieve naman ako kahit papa'no ngayong araw kasi napa-check ko na yung DR exhibit form ko.
pero ano eh.. parang.. grr..

may empty something pa rin.
pakiramdam ko kulang pa rin ako sa effort.

nung may pasok pa, kung anu-ano pinaggagagawa ko para lang sa "glory" ng grade.
pero ngayon, wala na kasing grades..
wala nang magsasabi sa akin kung ano dapat ko gawin, kung pa'no ko dapat gawin, et cetera.

shet.

bukas babalik ako sa school para ipapirma DR exhibit form ko. sana naman tama ang ginawa ko na format. sana naman.
sinunod ko naman ang instructions, so hopefully di ganun kagrabe ang problema ko bukas.


ano ba 'tong empty something na 'to?!!!
sheesh..
wala sa mga tried and tested diversionary tactics ko ang umuubra.
parang yung tipo ng sakit ng ulo na di naman ganun kasakit slash nakakasira ng daily routine kaya di mo tinatapatan
ng gamot pero alam mo naman na may mali talagang nangyayari sa loob ng ulo mo..
yung tipong ganun nga.. parang benign tumor..
nandyan siya, alam mo na di siya dapat nandun, pero ok lang rin naman kaya di mo inaaksyunan.

potah.

help.

-_-

i have decided to minimize my internet time.

it's unhealthy.

i always feel drained after i go online.

it feels good to explore pages, etc... but then..

sabi nga nung isang quote na nabasa ko dati tungkol sa TV... "the television has an amazing ability to make you feel connected and lonely at the same time.."

parang internet nga..

connected ka sa maraming tao. pero sa real world, you're all alone in a room (except for a few cockroaches)

so now, i'll try to be a normal human being and try to get things done..

maglilinis ako, aasikasuhin aking PRC requirements, ano pa ba..

ah yes.. money making schemes..

napaka-inutil ko.

grr..

*kanina kasi sa Eat Bulaga, yung mga contestant nila sa Sa Pula, Sa Puti..mga working students..

na-guilty tuloy ako..

ang bait ko 'no? i felt guilty.. amazing.

so umm.. see you next week, maybe?

Stagnation Damnation

Medyo na-busy ako last week sa completion pero ngayon.. hindi na..

wala na akong ginagawa!!

kelangan ko ng "excitement" kumbaga..
wala pa talaga akong pera ngayon, kaya di ako maka-alis ng bahay..
shet.

hmm..

2:55am na at gising na gising pa rin ako.
sige.. iku-kwento ko na lang lahat ng ginawa ko sa araw na ito. ok?

nagising ako mga 10:30am yata.. badtrip na naman ako kasi masakit ulo ko. tapos orange pa talaga yung kurtina namin sa kwarto so imagine niyo na lang kung gan'o ka pangit ng gising ko.

pagbaba ko, naubusan na ako ng ulam. sabi ni mama.. "magcereals ka na lang.." eh kaso, ayoko ng muesli at honeystars eh kaya nag-nesvita na lang ako..

tapos yung ginawa ko after nun, di ko na maalala.. ang sunod ko lang na maalala ay nung kumain na ako ng lunch.. so breakfast ko 11.. tapos naglunch ako 1pm..

ininit ko yung liempo sa ref.. tapos nilamon ko talaga lahat ng pagkain na yun..
nakatulala lang ako..
meron akong naramdamang kakaiba..
pagkatapos nun, lumobo ang cheeks ko..
dumiretso ako sa lababo..
at sumuka ng bonggang-bongga..

sumuka ako ng 2 cups of rice, isang sachet ng nesvita classic flavor, at 3 hersheys dark kisses.
as in dire-diretsong suka.. wala ngang sound effects eh..
parang gripo lang..

ok.

kadiri.

pagkatapos nun, nag-blank na naman utak ko.. wala na naman ako maalala after that.
umuwi sila mama mga 4pm yata..
ah oo.. naglaro nga lang pala ako ng cooking dash pagkatapos ko sumuka..

so umuwi na sila mama 4pm no.. pinagalitan niya ako kasi ba't di ako naghugas ng pinggan tsaka ba't di ko inayos yung mga damit.. (pasok sa tenga, labas sa kabila..hehe)

tapos umalis tita ko tsaka si mama nagpamassage..

tapos nag-dinner na kami..
medyo nagalinlangan akong kumain uli kasi medyo nahihilo pa rin ako.. pero.. GO!!
glass noodles yung ulam namin.. .masarap..pero tatlong subo lang ang nakayanan ko..

pagkatapos nun, umakyat ako sa kwarto para maka-iwas sa gulo..
nag-gitara gitara ng konti.. tapos nung naubusan na ako ng mga songs, nanood ako TV..

tapos.. eto..

nagiinternet na naman..


sabi ng erpat ko, yung iniipit daw ni angel locsin sa kilikili niya dun sa commercial ng Rexona ay Pringles..hehe..
yung sa "ligo lang", onion flavor daw kasi nag-iiba kulay..
tapos yung sa "with rexona" ano.. classic flavor..

Kaming tatlo.. ang pagbabalik!

<--this kind of friendship lasts forevah.

Ngayong araw, tuwang-tuwa ako. Sa wakas, nagkita kaming muli ni Mario at Dominic.

Na-miss ko talaga ang dalawang mokong na 'to.. hehe..





Nagkita kami sa NCCC mall at kumain muna ng takoyaki. Nag-update rin nga pala kami tungkol sa aming mga buhay-buhay.

Wala talagang nagbago. Graduate na kami ni Mario pero parang second year high school pa rin.

Haay.. Nagpapasalamat talaga ako na magkaibigan pa rin kaming tatlo.. Grabe. Walong taon na rin kaming nagsasama ha..!
Mahal na Mahal ko talaga Ang dalawang yun at kahit ano man ang mangyari, mamahalin ko pa rin sila.

Sheesh. Foodtrip to the max talaga kaming tatlo. Kainis nga lang kasi yung mga kasabay ko puro payatot.. wahaaa!! Hehe..

Kakahiya kumain.

So, nag-takoyaki kami, diba? Pagkatapos nun, lakad-lakad muna sa mall para medyo matunawan.. nakasalubong namin si Sr. Elle, teacher namin dati as Aral. Pan..

Tapos nakita nila yung CI ko na hot.. hehe.. silang dalawa ay "nalibog".. hahaaaaa!!

Tapos tumuloy kami sa Banok's sa may People's Park.. KAIN NA NAMAN!!! WAHAA!!
Nag-extra rice pa talaga ako.. grabe! Goodluck na lang sa jebs ko mamaya.. haha..

Tapos siyempre, kelangan na namang i-digest yung barbeque so lumibot naman kami sa People's Park.. hehe.

<-ready to jebs na kami!

Chika-chika na naman kami.. hehe.. nakasalubong namin si Ronmar..

Todo photo ops din kami.. ginamit naming tripod yung mga trashcan.. hahay.. bliss.

Nung naubusan na kami ng lilibutan sa People's Park, dumiretso kami sa G-mik para magkaraoke up to sawa.. grabe. Napaos yata ako dun.

Lonely Hearts Club ang naging itsura namin.. wahaaa!!!

<--we are lonely and we have hearts.. <3

Puro heartbreak sawi songs ang tinira namin.. tuwang-tuwa naman ako..hehe..

Katagalan, na-exhaust na rin kami.. kaya yun, naglakad na naman kami.

Tapos.. hulaan niyo kung ano na naman ginawa namin..

Yeh!

Kumain uli!! Wahaa!!

Nag-Basti's kami at umorder ng pizza.. yung sizzling gambas hot spicy pizza.. hindi pala understatement yung title nung pizza..

HANG HANGHANG talagaaaH!! Hooh..

May hangganan rin naman ang mga stomach namin kaya't umuwi na kami.

Sinabayan nila ako na maglakad pauwi at hinatid nila ako sa bahay.

Tapos sinamahan ko rin sila habang nag-aantay ng taxi.. haha.

Yey.

<--sa dulo ng maselang bahagharing ito ay matatagpuan ang mga leprechaun na mahilig mag-casino. VIP sila.

I am happy. Period.

Have a happy period! ^^

Abangan ang Susunod na Kabanata

Hello people. And hello worlds!! Greetings.

Medyo matagal-tagal na rin akong nawala dito sa blog world.

Hmm.. so far medyo marami na rin akong "new experiences" na hindi na blog.. kakatamad ikwento..

Oo nga pala. Kaka-graduate ko lang..

hahay..di ko feel.. parang wala lang..

Tulog ang erpat ko buong graduation..ako naman nag-sounds lang..

Hahay.. don't get me wrong.. Masaya ako na naka-graduate na ako..

Pero wala kasi akong naramdaman.. akala ko na pag-gising ko may parang "feeling" ako na

Mararamdaman..

Kaya lang..wala eh!! Haha..

Tapos nakuha ko na rin pala ang professional nursing pin ko.. hmm.. wala Lang rin.. 0_o

Ang naalala ko Lang sa araw na yun ay Ang pain... ANG SAKIT NG PAA KO!!!

Lecheng heels.. T_T