i think i've grown numb.
my friend just told me that i have become numb.. he said he can't remember the last time he's seen me cry or look sad even if sad and crying-worthy events are happening.
i think he's right.
i can't remember the last time i've cried..
the only expressions i've used for the past few months are happiness and worry..
(and i have reason to believe that it hasn't only been months but YEARS)
no emotion.. like that guy from samuraix who smiles all the time..
it's not because i haven't been feeling bad at all..
i just can't seem to muster up the energy to feel emotion (let alone SHOW it)..
and recently, people are starting to notice..
but i can't help it..
i'm content.
(even if there is still SO MUCH MORE that is lacking in my life)
i think i am ready to die.
*oooh.. kakatakot naman yan na statement!
4 comments:
*tok tok tok* [knocking on wood]
i can't recall when contentment became offensive or something to be seen as malicious or just-not-right. last time i checked it was still a good thing. hmm.. have i become the new rip van winkle? LOL.
nothing's permanent dear. you're just going through a phase.
nyahaha it's ok to feel numb sometimes...it's a defense mechanism...ahehe
yey!!! may mga nagreklamo!!! ^_^
hehe..
i DO hope it's a phase..
pero cool rin na defense mechanism, right? (di ko lang alam kung ano ang kailangang i-defend)
~wee!!
^_^
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